Hannah's blog. :)

2010-04-15T00:48:00.002+08:00

Hais

2010-04-15T00:03:00.001+08:00

MIGRATING HERE TILL WEEBLY IS ALRIGHT :)

Weebly has been giving me bullshit problems, and I need a space to talk, so what better than my old blog? ^^

I was reading through my archives, when I realised how obsessed I was with my Goodybooks boss last time. As in, super obsessed. HAHAHAH it's strange, like everythings a dream. But it's okay, it's ALL over yeah? ^^

I also realised how much my life has changed... And it's quite shocking. I'm no longer a student in Ngee Ann(at the moment), no longer so outgoing as before, no longer Goodybooks crazy, no longer no longer......
Instead, it's Kennedy Subway and TheDigitalBee.

It's amazing how time flies. I'm just so amazed.

So anyway, back to the current situation today.

Today Kennedy came to my house. We watched the "One More Chance" by Jack Neo. It was nice and funny, typical Jack neo show.

Then HuiChin came over to Khatib MRT to get a monkey handphone stand.
I wore darling's shoes out SECRETLY.
Cos I wanna feel how it's like to be in his shoes. HAHAHA. get it?! Double meaning. :D
The shoes were big, but not too big.

It's not your fault. I love you. (:

2009-10-09T09:45:00.003+08:00

Okay.
I'm trembling now.

Boss is super scary.
Very very very scary.

He is rarely angry.
But when i came in just now, he keep on banging on the keybaord.
I'm very scared.

Gonna go to toilet to wash my face. :/

2009-09-27T10:21:00.003+08:00

Agenda for today.

1. Find nice and new songs to download into my H/P.
2. Meet Thivya to swap TB :)
3. Maybe go exercising :D
4. Maybe Eeting and gang coming to my house today, unconfirmed.
5. Prepare for work tommorow, at least read through and refresh S.O.P.

Agenda for next week.

1. Improve on work.
2. Go on a diet. Not a very strict one, but at least i gotta cut down on carbs and all, before my stomach explodes.
3. Buy new shoes. Yeah, i need new shoes, not want. My current shoes are like giving way now, other than my sport shoes.
4. Sign up for hip hop w esther.
5. Contemplate whether to take up Blogshop Supplying Job or not.
6. Go exercising with LKH :D As usual. Should i call Edwin they all? Not sure about that. SIGH*

Happy birthday Samuel Aw.
1 year ago, you were my best guy friend.
You sat beside me, we used to talk about lotsa stuff and study together.
I remembered you had so many piercings, so many gfs.

And to think that 1 year later we're like strangers.
You hanging out with bad company, smoking, etc.

And i can only see you from afar.
So that was our friendship, just like that.

In a way i HATE SMOKERS (Other than the "Smoking is oh so sexy" part)

Yeah, you've heard it.
I hate smokers.

How people that i "love" or "like" go into the hands of the cigarette.
My superior in Gelare, who has been the kindest to me, smoked.
My ex best guy friend, who sat beside me during class (yes that samuel aw), smoked.
Now
My boss, whom has been both an inspiration to me being a reader a worker for him, smoked.

How bad is that?

I used to think smoking is sexy.
I'm beginning to hate it right now.

2009-09-26T19:51:00.002+08:00

Blog's been plain, yup.
I'll bombard it with photos, especially for the Marina Barrage outing today!<3
That is, if my lomography peeks turn out well.
For those who read, thank you for being interested in my little life :) I really appreciate it.

Hmmmm.

Today i brought my LOMO along <3 <3 <3
And chongyong said it looked like from Toys' R Us. Keep quiet lah!
:/

So about the Marina Barrage outing.
IT WAS A BLAST.
Not about who organised it, not about whether the food provided was good,
It was ABOUT THE PEOPLE.
Always :-)

6C has been giving me lotsa joy, lotsa strength to carry on..... sometimes when i'm tired.
I really dont know how you guys feel about me.
But all i know is that,
With you guys, I can be myself... And not pretend to be who i am not. And that's an awesome feeling i guess. :D

After my first time at marina barrage, we headed over to plaza singapura for a horror movie, Phobia 2. Story line wise, pretty average lah. But it was funny, the 2nd and 5th story at least! Double HAHHA. We managed to smuggle kaiyang in. He's only sec 2. Hahhaha. :D

After that celeb-ed bdae of Hazel and John.

And now i'm back here typing this post,
Which i have to leave my housie 15 mins later.
Am just too shacked.
But i gotta support esther in her performance! :)

So enough about today.
As for work.

Many things happened at work.
Even though it was just 1 colleague/1 boss/1 lunch partner i have =.=

1.My first ever penalty at work.

As in really guilty and upset.
I made a small mistake, but it reflected bad on me.
Boss spotted it, and he kinda looked disappointed.... i dont know sad or angry, to me?
For me, i felt even worse about myself. I think i'm seriously putting too much pressure on myself, but that's another story lahs.

Because other than my pay, i have this "deadline incentive" thing. If i complete a task well, he can give me 3 cents up to $15!!!!! How cool is that :-)

But anyway, when i made the mistake, he said in his FIRST EVER serious voice, "So how much do you think your penalty should be?"

And i was like, "$1"

2. Sweets that he stole when i'm away.

YESSSSSSSSSSSSS! He steals my sweeets when i'm away from work! =.=

3. Macdonalds.

We ate macdonalds one day. Da baoed for him and we ate fries and our burgers and talked.

4. Blogshop opportunity, but this time with Goodybooks.

Not confirmed yet, but i'm given a chance to be one of the supplier for blogshops in singapore, supplying Goodybooks' books.

How cool is that?

But i need a blogshop partner. BADLY. Esther, hints? :)))))

For now, Life has been up and down, but still....... cool :D

Love everyone.
Hearts all over the world tonight.

Hannah.

2009-09-24T21:46:00.002+08:00

I may be getting this tommorow:

A SHINY HEART LOMOGRAPHY CAMERA ! :D

Whoot.

JUst on time for marina barrage <3

2009-09-22T10:02:00.002+08:00

I'm strong.

And i wont let any obstacles come and hinder me from who i want to be/who i am.
Whether or not it's past failures, or a tiny little evil voice in my head that constantly list why i cant succeed.

2009-09-22T06:48:00.002+08:00

Okay.
Mission Accomplished.
I'M ACTING WEIRD LIAO -.-

Sians.
I guess i dont know how to handle guys.
At least those that i like.

Big SIGH.

Today running. Gloria sharlynn and andrew coming :) Then 6c i dont know who coming, Esther and dont know who else.

Brace yourself hannah.
I know the past is coming to haunt you yet again.
I know just when life is about to turn to good, something big stops you, and you get really frustrated sometimes.
But i guess that's what life's about.
You're strong, so fight.

Anyway, just would like to share with you something that i've learnt from TCP camp.

Climbers, Campers, Quitters.

Quitters are people who give up easily, who "opt out, cop out, back out, and drop out." The minute they face any kind of hardship, they quit. They use adversity as an excuse not to work hard. They say things like, "What's the point?" and "It's not worth it" or "It's just a waste of time."

Campers are a step up from quitters, but they never reach their full potential. Campers are people who go a reasonable distance and get comfortable with the status quo. They don't challenge themselves much; they avoid risk and, as a result, they don't move up the ladder. Campers don't like to rock the boat.

Then there are the climbers.

Climbers are people whose days are filled with learning and excitement. Climbers continually embrace and overcome challenges. They see hardships as opportunities to push themselves, to go one step further. They keep going no matter what obstacles life hurls their way. They are resilient and persistent. Climbing, says Stolz, is like swimming upstream. It demands unending energy, sacrifice, and dedication.

Who do you want to be?

2009-09-20T23:00:00.004+08:00

I know you guys are thinking something.
My blog boring right?
HAHAHAH.
My post recently quite short and "work work and more work" updates.

I know, i'm getting bored of my blog toooooo.

So i shall ATTEMPT to make it more interesting. =D

Life has basically been about work (So here i go again)
Revolving around 1 workplace, 1 colleague which is my boss which is the author which is my only friend at work, and Microsoft Excel and loads of other crap.
Have been going to Plaza Singapura for um.... 3 consecutive days? And i go there no mood shop one kays, it's pure work.

I think quite a number of people know about my crush.
Some of the 6c-ians mass-convoed yesterday.
It was fun.
Thanks john for being so crazy :/
Hahah.
And i told them about my crush.
I dont mind sharing about all these things though.

But so yeah.

I saw him today again.

I immediately recalled of how 6c mass commed about him and i blushed zzzzz.
But he looked kinda down.
Cos today is supposed to be a great day for sales.....
But it's a bit too quiet.
He didnt talk much
:(
Poor thing.

Seeing him down, i also down.
Dont know why.

Hais.
Jiayou =D

When i see people down, i end up being sadder than the emo person o.0

Like Fatin.
Sometimes when she's down, i end up being super emo o.0

Work was insane.
Boss taught me excel yesterday.
And excel really can do SOOOOOOOOOOOO many things.
Yes, but i was supposed to do a boring part of excel.
Many many hours just copy and paste copy and paste.
Wah lauuuu.
Like crap siah. :/

Then for the past few days, i've been sending books to Plaza Singapura, and decorating his little book kiosk.

This are the pictures:

Storage place in P.S:

Kiosk 1.

Kiosk 2.

Boss and I designed it, but i was the one who physically designed it =D
Okay lah, looks okay right? Hope so.
There's a real knife inside. $2 from daiso. o.0

Goodybooks, kampatehhhh! ^.^

Sick and tired of work.
So draining. ):
Boring sometimes as well.
Mentally draining and feeling weird.
Must persevere :D

I dont know how to act in front of you.
I know it would become like this. Once i like you, i would end up talking weird and acting weird. i know it.
Maybe it's my fault.
Maybe it's my fault for feeding thoughts about you and me, when i know that close to nothing between us will happen.
or WAIT.
Will it?
Why not? :)
But.
I dont think so. Cos i've always been so low self esteem when it comes to love.
But i think i deserve a chance?

God, can save me?
I'm insane.

2009-09-19T22:43:00.002+08:00

I like you,
But i shouldnt.

Today was a blast.
Work work and loads of work.
Met boss' customers, went to Plaza Singapura to top up books.
Sales was average, considering the fact that it was the first day of the release of new book.
Hope everything gets better *Crosses fingers*

2009-09-18T09:55:00.002+08:00

Results.

Business communication- B
Business Statistics- B+
Microeconomics- B+
Accounting- A ! :D
IT in business- B+ (What the *@*$#(? ) :D

GPA: 3.5

A friend asked me, hey so how's your results?
And i was like, checking still checking still.
And when i went to the portal.
I stunned.

My results were so much better than i've expected. I expected bcomm to be like below B, or to fail microeconomics. But i got good results in the end.

Really want to thank my mum for constantly being there for me, Fatin for being a supportive and nice friend, and miss tan eng for emailing me and encouraging me.

Thank you.

2009-09-18T07:52:00.003+08:00

Camp over.
One word: Awesummmme.
We learnt about poverty, overcoming adversity, different personalities and D.I.S.C, teamwork, and loads more.

Work today.
Results of exams out today.

I have to keep going =)

2009-09-14T13:50:00.003+08:00

Camp tommorow,
And i havent packed yet.
And so very tired.

Feeling so very alone.

Can you be there for me when no one understands?

2009-09-13T13:25:00.000+08:00

I'm back human beings!
:D

Cruise has been an escape from everything -work, fears, etc.
And i've enjoyed myself there with great people and great food.

I'll just let the pictures do the talking yeah, so yup. (:

Work tommorow.
I'll try my best to be the best i can be in the job.
No fears, no fears.

Let Go, Let God.

2009-09-11T09:06:00.003+08:00

I'm going CRUISE today! :D

Late afternoon.
Dont miss me horhs ;) Hahah!

Okay.

See my schedule:

(Now it's 9.10am)

9.20am- See if the parcels are registered postage/normal postage + pack all parcels.
10am- Cycle to post office at yishun and post all the parcels + call this fashion.

2009-09-10T19:21:00.003+08:00

I beg you hannah,
please dont like him.
Please dont.

Okay,
Bad news chandoner...
I liked him already! D:
While i was subconsciously thinking about him in the bus or when i was packing books.
SIGH.
):
Feelings are really mean.
Just hope that i can still work and be natural in front of him!

If you are invited to my blog,
it means you are someone i can trust my more inner secrets with !
:D

Just came back from jogging with terence and chu wei! :D
Nice manz.
I ran 5 rounds instead of my usual 3-4 rounds.
Super cool.
I want to jog more! And i need more exercise buddies! Teeheee :]

People, it's OKAY if i'm never gonna be slim like those models.
If i cant be slim, i'm gonna be BUFF.
No kidding.
At least it's in the fit category :D

Drinking 100 plus orange now.
It's a good drink.

Going to esther's place for movie soon.
Watching fighting.
Not sure what's that.

Haha.

Pride.
Handle it well.

I'm not perfect, i'm trying to not be perfect,
but be a better and stronger person.

Anyways, today is my off day! ;D
So see this:

SEPTEMBER.
10- Off day.
11to13- Cruise with mum.
14- work.
15to17- TCP camp.
18to22- work + OT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #*#@^&&$^@*&#$ Super duper duper fragilastic business D:
After 22- Work. And more work. And on top of more work, friends and going out (: I have a life alright.

Hip hop most probably cancelled. D:
I dont want to keep myself so busy that i cant breathe.
Broke another promise again.
D:
Sorry esther.
Next hols bahs.
I'm sad toooooooooooooo ):
But work got contract, and i need to do it well.

And before i go,

a picture of my office ^^
Nice horhs! ^^

My boss did something weird.
He was like *pat pat* the "Love me" bear in front of me .___.

2009-09-10T14:56:00.000+08:00

2009-09-08T19:34:00.004+08:00

Work
Makes the world go round?

One word for the first two days of my job: Intense.
Draining both physically and mentally.
Not that it's very hard, i think i just need some adaptation, that's all.
Hopefully things will be better with more practice.

Review:
I think i've made quite a number of mistakes, but i improved on the 2nd day:P
Boss has been nice.
I think i'm pretty creative at crafting out ways to improve the company,
But sometimes i'm absent minded and forget stuffies. D:

And i got no appetite! YAY.
HAHAHA.
Cos it equals to MINUS MINUS KG!

So anyway, jyjy hannah :) I'm not gonna give up, no matter how hard it is. I'm gonna improve and not sit back and say oh it's not possible oh it's not possible and do nothing about it.

[edit]

12.22am.

Sometimes i find that i have not enough strength to carry on...
But then there will always be resources to help you replenish your strength.

And thank you for replenishing my strength Chadon+ Esther for today. (:
Really, thank you.

My gastric pain has gone away.
My fears has gone away for the moment.
My problems weighing down on my shoulders has gone away for the moment.
LITERALLY
:D

And i guess i'm happy.
To know at least i belong somewhere.
To know at least people truly cared :-)

Me and charis were sharing about problems.
And through our sharing, it made me feel not alone.
Made me realised that i'm not the only one with problems.

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Today at work, i felt so lousy about myself.
Why?
Cos i felt that i did not stand up for myself.

Boss told me to to do Task A, for example.
Then in my heart i knew that method A for Task A is good, and decided to use method A.
Then after that he said, why not you do method B instead?
I was like in my heart, "But i already had method A in mind!"
But i told him, "OKAY. I will do method B, the one that you've asked me"

Half an hour,
he said, "You know hor, you should do method A lehs. More efficient."

Then in my heart, i was like, WHY DIDNT I LISTEN TO MYSELF, AND BE CONFIDENT JUST FOR ONCE?

Felt really frustrated.

I dont think i'm dumb.
But it's just that i:

1. Dont dare to "reject" him.
2. Dont dare to voice out my opinion.
3. Not confident, enough at least.

):

And sometimes, it's not as simple as it seems.
Sometimes, i just dont have enough faith and confidence in myself, to tell myself that, yes yes hannah, i can do it. So just go for it. Seize that prize. Without anybody's opinions, do it. DO IT YOUR OWN WAY. Be confident........

But i cant.

That being said,

1. It is impossible to be confident and have faith in myself TOTALLY overnight.
Just like how you need to earn someone's trust; You need to own trust in yourself tooo.

And just like he says, "Everything will be fine in the end"

I will come to a point of time where i've improved from the current stage i am in now.
I will be more confident, more happy, more assertive :-)

Cheers hannah. You can do it.

Nights ladybugs, crickets, cockroaches(not that i love you), cats, dogs, bunnies, yangyang, eeting, juetong, and finally human beings. Have a sweet dream, and think of your loved ones <3

2009-09-06T00:42:00.006+08:00

[edit]
Work tmr.
Freaking scared.
):

Okay lah, less scarier than exams.

But still, a bit scared.
Excited at the same time.

In case you dont know,
I will be doing sales, administrative work(like picking up calls and answering mails), and maybe basic accounting too?!
Sales is like commission based which is like a challenge.

Just hope everything will go smoothly through practice :)

So anyway, woke up at 11.30am today LOL.
Couldnt finish my chicken rice.

At 5pm met mum at amk hub and we went to eat at foodcourt.
Picked up my black suspender shorts.
Shopped at popular bookshop.
And then homed (:

My blogshop sales hasent been the best,
Last time got more sales ):
But pretty understood cos last time i sell more things.

Pray for me for more sales, both blogshop and work LOL.

Kk... So God bless me for tmr. :D
Ciaoz people.

[/edit]

Teddy Geiger- These walls.

Song average, but lyrics are lovely :)

The lyrics:

Aahhh yeah !
I can't believe what is in front of me
The water's rising up to my knees
And I can't figure out
How the hell I wound up here
Everything seemed okay when I started out the other day
Then the rain came pouring down
And now I'm drowning in my fears
And as I watch the setting sun
I wonder if I'm the only one

[Chorus]
'Cause everybody tries to put some love on the line
And everybody feels a broken heart sometimes
And even when I'm scared I have to try to fly
Sometimes I fall
But I've seen it done before
I got to step outside these walls

I've got no master plan to help me out
Or make me stand up for
All the things that I really want
You had me to afraid to ask
And as I look ahead of me
Cry and pray for sanity

[chorus]

These walls can't be my haven
These walls can't keep me safe here
Now i guess I've got to let them down

'Cause everybody tries to put some love on the line
And everybody feels a broken heart sometimes, yeah, and
Even when I'm scared i have to try to fly
Sometimes I fall
But I've seen it done before

I got to break out...
I got to break out...
I got to step outside these walls
There's love outside these walls
I've felt my heart break
But its a brand new day
And I'm not going down
'Cause I'm stepping out
I'm stepping outside
These walls
{I've seen it done before..and I'm walking on, I'll walk it on, oh I'm moving on, hoooo, give me some room , climb outside these walls , right outside these walls. )

Outing with family today!
Ate alot ):
Mickey mouse cake.
Yangyang leeching on to his father.
LOL
Pics to be up soon! :)

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FOR WORK.

80 20 rule-Pareto Principle

What does it represent? It states that many events, roughly 80% of the effects come from 20% of the causes.

It is a common rule in business; About 80% of your sales come from 20% of your clients.

Connection to:
-Income and wealth.e.g: 80% of the wealth was owned by 20% of the population.
-In software.e.g: by fixing 20% of the bugs, 80% of the viruses would be eliminated.
-Time management.e.g: focusing one's activities to those 20% that contribute to 80% of the income.
-Clothes: We wear 20% of our clothes 80% of the time.

Miusage of this principle:
-Using this principle to interpret data with a small number of categories or observations.

2009-09-04T15:56:00.005+08:00

Yet another Shopping day.

Amk library + Amk Hub.!
Eeting + Esther!
Extra happy + Extravagant!
:P

Bought black suspender shorts(will collect it on sunday), silver headband, and black crop top :D
Yeah, i know.
I have been shopping alot.
But who cares?
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Actually i care.
LOL! :P Really. I dont want to be more extravagant on my spending. I was like damn thifty during sec school :P But poly year 1 different lerh.

Think i have to save after sunday shopping outing + next thursday outing :P
I dont like being like this.

KK.

So anyway, 10am i went amk library to read my accounts.

Bad debts doubtful debts and all.
A little interesting, but got restless. Eeting came as she got time to spare before her dance practice.
Showed her my LKH book, she read it while i studied.

Then esther's exam ended and told her to meet me at amk instead of orchard mrt.

So okay.

Ate PepperLunch with my Eeting ^^v.

See the smoke:
:P

Decided to go on a lowcarb diet so yeah.

See:

No sweet sauce and no rice ^^v.

Ate it clean.

Yeah weird diet i know.
But hey it works! :P
Would have to break my diet next friday though.
Cos going on a cruiseeeee! :D

Awesome food and beef @ Pepper lunch.
Two thumbs up.
Not to mention great service.
Would frequent there more.

Then Esther came and we went to walk walk.
That's when the shopping started ^^
Esther and Eeting started suan-ing me.
HMPH.
What's wrong with people whose name starts with "E"?
Jk jk lah.
:D

Anyway, see my purchases:

In black
$28.

Silver headband:
@ $3.90
Didnt really suit me as a headband, but as a hairband it does :]
May consider selling at my blogshop.

And lastly,
A black crop top from THIS FASHION.
@$9.50 ONLY!
How cheap can i get.
And manz, it's gorgeous 8-D

One of my most cleverest purchases! ^3^

But what pissed me off is the Cash counter girl.
Stupid siah.

I was like,
"I'm a this fashion member.But i didnt bring my card. Can i leave my full name?"

Then she and her stupid facial expression like i owe her money liddat.
"Cannot"
with this face---> >:O

Okay nvm.

I was like, "But sembawang branch can leh......."

She was like "No cannot. We are having sales, so cannot give full name. Just look at this board, it say cannot. So yah CANNOT."

Said this with her f-ed up expression.

WTH.

FIRSTLY, i learned in sales that you cannot say CANNOT to a customer. You must rephrase it in such a way, till it is something like, "I apologise for not being able to let you use your card. However, you can........ yadayadayada........"

SECONDLY, dont give f-ed up expressions like we owe you a living. We do not OWE you a living. We customers, provide you with bread and butter on your table.

THIRDLY, you are just plain incompetent. Having such attitude shows that not only do you have low EQ, but low IQ as well. 8-(
I dont look down on people who have seemingly "mediocre" jobs.
I've always believed that no matter what job you are in, as long as you do it GOOD and you are HAPPY with your job, you are a SUCCESS STORY.
Like my mum. She has a role less than a nurse in NUH. But... she likes her job so much, is doing great, and she was the only one who got an A* in her job! Proud of her :D

So back to the question.
In summary, this salesperson just sucks bananas. Seriously.

FOURTHLY, if your company lets you put on a name tag, i would have complained about you before writing this down.

Just pissed off.

But calm down Hannah.
Not worth it >:D

Anyway, me and charis and hiding gordon webcammed our way through our late afternoon.
It was pretty fun.
Sorry i was like emo halfway through D:

Some of the nicer pics:

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And before i go.....

Here's a video.

I have a little secret obsession for danny noriega. <3
Okay lah, not really secret. :)

Tata lovely people!
:D

2009-09-03T19:02:00.004+08:00

HGH.

Happy Girl Hannah. :)

Banana wallpaper;
Probably the best wallpaper in the whole woorrrrrrrrrrrllllddddddddddddd!
:)

I've got many many things to update today!

1. GOT MY GOODY BOOKS JOB. As an admin assistant. Am i happy or what.Starting work next monday :D

My boss say have to wear formal wear, and that means blouse + skirt/pants. I really feel like shopping for formal wear but all the money i have has gone to hip hop wear lerhs D:

God: thanks for giving me this incredible opportunity to learn.
Mum says that as i'm inexperienced, they may try to correct me. Correcting me means scolding me sometimes. But i'm up for it, i guess? It's a learning point.

2. Going to purchase an adidas shoes costing less than $25 ONLY! From China. What a price! LOL :D

3.Met up with Vina today and went to this quaint little chinese tea shop. Tea Zen Bone Mind- Weird name right? LOL. Somehow find it quite cooooool.
Ate tea eggs and drank cold fizzy cucumber tea.

That's vina!

& before we chose what we wanted,

They served us welcome tea:

So you can kinda imagine the price of the food there now =D

We ordered 1 tea egg each for ourselves.
It's called a SPA tea egg. o.0

Loved the bowl that contains the egg.
AND.... the sauce was super salty but i kinda liked it. (:

Rambutan tea Vina ordered.
The smallest cup is light rose syrup(i think)

My cucumber tea:

Stayed there around 1-2 hour plus, talking and talking :P

Then we went to Bugis Street + ILUMA.
My first time that i went to ILUMA.
Didnt know there was such a shoppping mall.

& so I continued to job hunt.
An middle age(towards the old side) was looking for a sales assistant.
So i asked him can hire me?
And he was like can can, and told me to that he will give me the job, but only if i told him by tommorow.
I was like okay.

But then vina, when we were at ILUMA, said that he was weird.
Not just the way he looked, but shouldnt he give a form to us to fill up for the job?

Weird.

Plus the fact that bugis street has security issues,
She warned me that it wasnt safe.

So yeah..

1 hour after shopping at ILUMA,
Goodybooks gave me a call, and said i was employed luhs.
:)
So that's about it for today!

I really love Goodybooks, at least as for now.
Love the system, the people(so far i only know the boss:X), and even though it's $4.50 + commission, i'm satisfied with this job. Really :)

Tommorow i'm going to do the following:
1. Softcopy of a passport-sized picture(can send to his email)
2. Photocopied of both sides of my NRIC
3. Print out 80-20 rule and read it during AMK library stay. Understand it plus how it will benefit me in my blogshop and studies.
4. List down the things I will spend from earning from GoodyBooks.
5. Read accounting book.

Predict is gonna be a hectic holiday.
But yeah.
I think next holiday i will slack and not work! ;))

Tatas lovelies. :)

2009-09-02T18:36:00.003+08:00

Today was another eventful day. (:

Went for my GoodyBook job interview.
Slept at 3am last night, woke up at 8am. Crappy right. So sleepy o_o
I think i sleep lesser than during school times(not exams). LOL.
But anyway, yeah.

In case you dont know, Goodybook is a Singapore based company. 6 novels are released by Singapore's young novelist, Low Kay Hwa, 23 years old. Go visit if you want to: http://www.goodybooks.com

So back to the day.
A guy from the GoodyBook company kept directing me to the ulu office place.
I was like, hmm nice admin guy yeah :)))

And then when i opened the door...
I was like, How come that guy so familiar ah?

Then i realised that the guy who directed me was Low Kay Hwa HIMSELF.
LOL :X
Felt like an idiot.

A few minutes to recover from my shock.

He was such a nice person, really. 8D
One of the nicest interviews that feels like talking to a friend!
:X

But seriously.
Nice :)

Took about 30 mins i guess? Lost track of time.

He asked me whether i'm free to work on the 7th september and stuff. Makes me feel like i'm being selected. :O
My hopes were like raised damn high.
But when i go facebook got SOOOOOOO many applicants leh.

So now i'm worrying about whether i will get in or not x(

*CROSS FINGERS*

If i dont get in, I would just go back to doing my blogshop business:)
And do more hip hop, and be hip ;)
And maybe find another job or something.
There are always more options, Hannah, more options.

After that, headed to West Mall to eat pasta. $5.80 only :)
Then browsed the place for basketball shorts/hip hop bottoms.
After trying a few different kinds, saw this white adidas basketball shorts. $25 only, material a bit thin though. But it was a steal. :)))

Singapore Idol later. Can i scream? :D

Not exercising. FML.

2009-09-01T02:24:00.000+08:00

I need a diary.
A nice diary.
May not be a super pretty one.
It can be as plain as an exercise book.....
But i want to fill it with thoughts...
Thoughts that only i know.

It's 2.24am now and i'm not yet asleep.
Having trouble sleeping, cos i just finish doing up my blogshop one hour ago, not to mention email old customers saying that my bs has opened. 8D

I love entrepreneurship. I really do.
I started "accounting" when i was young.
I would take a small 555 notebook to record down my grannie's expenses when she goes t0 the market.
Hope i could be a business woman when i grow up.
Maybe a CEO of a food/beauty industry? Hahah combining two things i like ^^v

An ant bit me just now. Damn pain luhs :(

Kk. So anyway, it was an eventful day.

1. Opened my blogshop.
2. Went out with JT. Bought 1 cap, 3 hip hop tops, 1 white diamond like larnyard, and 1 star bangle.
3. Met up with esther charis and gordon.
(:
BUSY.
I like.
At least i did 3 meaningful things today!
Better than rotting and doing nothing (: wooohooo.

Juetong is one of the most bestest shopping buddies. No kidding.
Fits preferences perfectly, and we are both good advisors to each other.
Only speed of shopping different a bit. hehe.

Saw this pair of nice heels. Super nice right? Damn high also, but i've never had such high heels so it's an experience......
$50 after less. Got no $$, so didnt buy in the end. ):

Homed at around 7pm.
Was totally shacked from 6 hours of totally walking around.

Supposed to start diet today but gave in to Chee Cheong Fun in the morning, and KFC in the afternoon.
Tmr start? Haha. :X

Oh yah. The goody books person calling me for an interview ^^v Tommorow 10.30am at mrt station meet. Sighs.
Hope it goes well luhs, even though i have no shitty mood to do any interview.

I've read someone's blog.
And what she said was true.
You thought you know a person so well,
But in the end, you realised that you dont know who she is.
So that's how i relate it to you.
I realised i dont know you. anymore.
Or maybe i'm just sensitive.
I dont know.

Another person says that the more you want to be in control of something, the more you are not in control of it.
it's true.

Esther and I were talking the other day.
She said that she wanted to be seen as a confident woman.
I think she is already seen that way.
For me, i also want!
I mean not only do i want to be seen like that,
I want to be able to FEEL like a confident girl.
Who has so much faith in herself, so much love to give others, and so much love returns back.
I like that. I really want that.

& I'm thinking too much. I know :)

2009-08-31T17:53:00.007+08:00

Holidays has made me super duper lazy!! ARGH.
:(
I am lazy to blog about today toooo.
Save me.

Kk so anyway it was teacher's day (: Headed over to ChungCheng High School yishun to celebrate.
Met familiar faces.
Was a little quiet during the performance.

Took photos:

Anyway, ate canteen food- japanese food + ice jelly. :)))))
Then eeting huichin and juetong as well as chengmun walked back home.
Chengmun bidded goodbye as she wanted to go see colleen. Eeting also, cos she got school.

Made juetong and huichin put mask, the black and quite hard to peel one. They ended up peeling it in agony. Felt a bit guilty after putting them through it, even though it was quite fun to watch. OOPS.

Played Youda Sushi Chef at home with huichin and juetong. They said it's a nice game :)))) Agreed too. You can get it free here, the whole game for free ---> HERE.

And that's about it.
Thanks for the company girls! :D

My holidays so far has been pretty SLACK. Most of the time spent is eating, sleeping and playing computer. How uneventful. I want to do something meaningful with my holidays.

Life will start tommorow!
Tuesday- Far east with Juetong.
Wednesday- Freeeee. Maybe will go job hunting or something.
Thursday- Meetup with Vina.
Friday- Meetup with esther. Sign up for hip hop! :)

And sometimes.
I would really love to open up my heart again.
But it has been broken too many times.
And another heartbreak by insensitive friends won't do.
Trust issues, much?
Haha.
I dont know.
Maybe low confidence that i wont be a good one?
I know that deep down inside my heart, i think i'm a nice friend.
But there's something stopping me.

But i still do hope to try.
I will open up my heart, soon.
And let people in.

2009-08-30T16:54:00.004+08:00

Super duper boring shitzxzxz day.
Rot for 8 hours already, in front of my laptop.
Supposed to open my blogshop, plus go gym but i no motivation.

SO BORING.
AHHHHH.

See how the hammies sleep :)
At Pet Lovers Centre.

I know tmr will be interesting :)
Get to meet my old sec school friends.

Later mum is going to teach me how to make teriyaki chicken and rice, plus soup tooo.

Anyway, photos from yesterday.And would talk more about yesterday tooo... Like a continuation! :)

StringRay Madness!

We got it for like 12 bucks. Pindong, chuwei, esther and me shared one whole stingray like that. Felt that it was a bit not worth money, cos even though it was tasty, it was far too little for 12 bucks.

Stingray tasted like fish. :)
Fish that looks flat.Hahaha.

Pindong and chu wei decided to order one more stingray. See how mad they are.
Pindong was saying that since stingrays killed the Crocodile Hunter, Steve Erwin(? correct?), he decided to make one more stingray get killed or sth. HAHA.

Then John and gang ordered his stringray, for 12 bucks. Around 10 minutes later, they got their stringray from another stall, THICK and LONG. We were like so stunned, cos it's really a super big difference.

Kept complaining of how big their portions are. They cant even finish please, while we finished ours so fast.

Helped them eat the oysters. Why no one appreciates oysters? They are the nicest seafood in the world, next to scallops and prawning type of prawns and salmon. Rawr!

Agreed with hazel on feeling Xin4 Fu2, cos the way how we sat together and ate, felt really good ^^ Great time.

John ordered BBQ chicken wing and i ate 1.

After that, we headed over to Ice3 to eat ice cream. (:

Our famous ice cream dish! Haha (:

Me and hazel. It's a super decent picture with her ^^

Esther and me.

Charis and me. Take photos with her always crazy one (:

Lazy to upload more photos. Hahha.

Mum's back. Off to make teriyaki chicken rice and soup. Tata!

I need motivation to exercise and keep fit :/

2009-08-29T22:11:00.003+08:00

Today was a uber good day out with 6C-ians.

Esther, charis, hazel, chongyong, jackie, pindong, yong jun, john, kaiyong, chuwei, gordon.... Did i miss anyone out? Lol.

But anyway, met out at 1.45pm, and homed at 9.30pm. :D

Turning point(movie), Watching some 6c-ians play JUBEAT and the basketball arcade game, pondered over going to Geylang or Chompchomp or Marina Barrage after our arcade and in the end we decided ChompChomp, ate at Chompchomp(Chilli stingray, chicken wings, porridge, sugar cane juice, ice cream! SUPER SINFUL PLEASE), and then homed luhs :D

And now i feel like talking about a burning topic inside my heart.

Horoscopes and God.

Christians would be offended when i say i believe in horoscopes.
I kinda understand that. But i think i believe in horoscopes, i dont like to lie or hide to myself or anyone else that i do not believe in horoscopes just because i'm christian..I like to be true to myself. I do think that there is an element of great truth in it.

I started reading horoscopes out of curiosity, and then it sort of started to seem so real, in terms of their personality of each horoscopes.

I dont know.
Horoscopes are super real.
I used to be obsessed over it.
Not anymore, ever since Valerie said that Horoscopes is like looking at people from a "racist" point of view..... Example, if horoscopes were to say that people born from October 23- November 19(Scorpio) are obsessed about things they like, cool headed but with a deep level of intensity, jealous, determined, etc individuals. You start judging a person even before you actually know the person.
And furthermore, even though 2 people can be pisces or born under the same sign, they may not be totally the same..... Due to life experiences, upbringing, etc.

So then again, humans are not homogeneous and horoscopes are not everything that make up a person's character. =D

The bible has told us not to mess around with horoscopes and other astrological stuffs like tarot cards, numerology..... So by reading horoscopes, it's sort of against the bible.

Then again, God has been maybe quite real in my life? A series of events in my life, which may seem coincidental, but yet i know it isnt. I know.

1. A friend, which is a girl, that i know who struggles with pornography.
As you know, pornography is bad. Like drugs, it takes whole of your whole soul and makes you more lustful.

One fine day, a female pastor approached her, and said.

"I dont know if it's true..... I mean you can forget about it if it's not true..... But, are you struggling with pornography?"

Of all the persons, of all the topics, of all the struggles, why tell my friend that?
:O Doesnt it puzzle you?

I was in awe.
God is ever knowing.

2. A message tape which my mum let me listen that answered my burning question.
I was so so down last week during the day before the MIEC paper...... That i kinda cried. I told my mum that life was meaningless and studies was just a pursue of grades.

The following day, i picked up my mum's CD player out of boredom, turned it on, and there was the CD entitled "The meaning of life". Listened to it, it answered all my burning questions.

3. A prophecy which the pastor prayed over me in sec 1.
"You are living in a world full of fear" One pastor said.
In sec 1, i didnt quite understand what he meant.
I totally forgot about this statement for years.

Then depression came, also anxiety. So many fears and phobias.

And when i recalled about this.
WOW. It was so so real. The prophecy, or rather the fact that i was living in a world full of fear, was true.
God is ever knowing.

4. A one sentence encouragement.
Was feeling very down, very unappreciated, very meaningless one time before o levels prelims.... I think. Cant remember when. During that moment of downness, A friend told me this, out of the blue through sms:

Friend: God wants me to tell you that he loves and cares for you.
Me: (Was a bit moved to tears) How did you know?
Friend: Because he told me.

So many others that have made me in awe.

Conclusion: I havent reached a decision about horoscopes, or God yet. Say that i backslide, i'm a bad christian, or anything that you want. Cos i think for me, i'm still discovering, still learning.......The paranormal is something so distant, yet so close to our lives. As for which religion is true or if there is any religion true at all, i have no concrete evidence to back up....But i do think that, if God was real, he would reveal himself to us in our daily lives.

2009-08-29T11:15:00.003+08:00

Exams are over! :))))

Super duper happy.
INFA was great; Could balance(for the first official time!)
Smsed eeting the first after exams ^^
Then headed over to amk hub to chill with gloria and huey jiun. Pepper lunch, vegetable fritters, yoghurt cum ice cream. Super fatty.
Went home and slacked with Singapore idol videos and butter cookies and chocolate biscuit waffle. -.-

Things i am/may going to do during my 2 months holidays:

1. Drop 5kg(Go on a diet and exercise super duper much)
2. Sign up for hip hop classes next friday.
3. Go out with friends.
4. Open my online shop- the beauty one, but maybe not for the laptop one ):
5. More movies at esther's place.
6. Find a job(maybe)
7. Learn roller blading.
8. Eat NYNY cheese fondue.
9. GYM GYM GYM.
10. Swim Swim Swim.
11. Buy Hong Kong dramas and chill and watch them.
12. TCP Current Affairs workshop (maybe only).
13. TCP camp 15-17 september.
14. Cruise with mum.
15. Birthday party for me ^^
16. Shopping! Skirts, shoes etc.
17. Shopping for hip hop wear. Buy at least 2 tees and 1 basketball shorts.
18. ARCADE with eeting ! Pass level 7 jubeat at least :))
19. Do some volunteer work.
20. Decide on a CCA. -.-
21. "Study Groups" 6C.
22. Organise and play badminton.
24. Organise ECP outing.
25. Try out Foie Gras...... Somewhere.
26. Bake!
27. Send proposal to EnterpriZe! *Crosses fingers*
28. Church visiting again. How sad.
29. Visit Marina Barrage.
30. Pierce my ears. OMG?
31. Do something drastic to my hair.
32. ROT.

I dont know. I think i like tragus piercing...... But i scared pain. Oh well.

So that's all that i'm gonna do for my holidays =D Cant think of any more right now.

2009-08-27T18:05:00.003+08:00

Exam blues.

Cant believe everything will be over tommorow at 4pm.
Then that's when the fun starts- Join hip hop with esther meiyen and other keen parties, start my 2 blogshops- 1 laptop one 1 beauty one, meet out with friends .......... (: Life will definetly be so great, i can foreseeeee. ^^

Singapore idol judge to Duane, one of the Singapore Idol Contestants: "Do you really like singing that's why you join this competition, or just because it boosts your ego?"

Exam period has been super tough for me. Very draining emotionally and mentally.
And gained super duper alot of weight man. Really unfair hmph. ): Cant wait to lose weight during the holidays ):

BSTATS and ITB. Both were okay. :) The 2 least confident papers, i managed to pull through. After the exam paper i kinda fell in love with ITB.... Maybe ITB isnt that bad after all. BSTATS was love, even though i failed for 2nd test around 2 months back.

MIEC. The paper which i had keep on procrastinating for revision ): Then the day before this paper(which was yesterday) i had full blown PMS, super duper tired the whole day, and cried at night. Shit man. Super duper stressed. Nothing can be absorbed. Woke up at 1am, studied till 4am then slept again. During the paper i couldnt really concentrate, wrote nonsense, forgot about the diagrams......................Hope to pass please *cross fingers*

INFA. Now havent started studying yet. Super duper tired still. WTF. ): Hais. Will just try my best lorhs. I LOVE INFA! ^^(trying to convince myself)

Exam blues exam blues exam blues exam blues, please end! Hope to get a B+ for overall score ^^

2009-08-25T11:23:00.003+08:00

TODAY IS GOING TO BE A PRODUCTIVE DAY!
I hope.
:X

Anyway, am going to sell laptop skins during the holidays.

Blogshop still under construction, but yeah.
Do check it out:
LAPTOPSKINS LAPTOPSKINS LAPTOPSKINS LAPTOPSKINS LAPTOPSKINS LAPTOPSKINS LAPTOPSKINS LAPTOPSKINS LAPTOPSKINS LAPTOPSKINS LAPTOPSKINS LAPTOPSKINS LAPTOPSKINS LAPTOPSKINS LAPTOPSKINS LAPTOPSKINS LAPTOPSKINS LAPTOPSKINS LAPTOPSKINS LAPTOPSKINS LAPTOPSKINS LAPTOPSKINS LAPTOPSKINS LAPTOPSKINS

Garskin is $50 something bucks. Bugis sells one of the cheapest, around $17.
But i sell it at $15. High quality somemore ^.^ Am using one now.
It suits 99% of laptops, and there are many funky designs as well :D PLUS PLUS it's super good quality! :))))

Friends do support me kays!

2009-08-23T11:39:00.002+08:00

COPYMEOW.
Copy my words in my blogpost.
You know who you are. ._.
Shooooo.

ITB is hell.

2009-08-22T01:42:00.005+08:00

{1.44am}

Blogging now.
Just came back from Kaiyong's house.
But... Cant help it.
The urge is there. :)

Hahahha.

Today has been a long day, and so many things cramped into one dayyyy! :)
I've never had such a long string of events in a day, yet dont feel very tired. haha.

So anyway. BSTATS paper today.
I know it's too early to say how i fared right now, but i think i did pretty alright :)
Satisfied that at least failing my previous bstats test didnt stop me from still working hard for my exam. That's what matters most; Not giving up!
Hope to get good marks bahs ^^
ITB is next; A pain, really a pain. Some parts are pretty interesting though, but stillllllllll..... Routers that part, super duper dry and dont understand.
Just hope to clear ITB, and then D.O.N.E for it.

Headed to NYP after bstats paper..... To eat with eeting :)))))) NYP also sell kaki fuyong... but it's like $3.60, and the egg is salty and little sauce. Still prefer NP's version.

Saw shermaine and hong lim. Hi shermaine! Hahha. Miss you. And like you said, i see your mum often :)

After that, headed over to northpoint G.V. to catch The Proposal. I've always loved Sandra Bullock. Wont say that the movie was awesome, but it was worth watching. :)

Slept a late afternoon nap for a while, and headed over to 6c study session.
Was the earliest, as usual -.-
Was really awesome, cos a little more people came today, and we sat at the bigbig sofa, and quite cosy.

I think overall, i do like 6c after all :)
Initially i super duper like 6c cos we had study sessions all the way through o levels, went out for countless movies, nightwalks, etc.
Then i began to see their flaws. Being so late, etc.
But i still like 6c :)

Kaiyong's house was next, and couldnt study at alllll. LOL man. Chongyong kept on talking about his school life and it was pretty entertaining. We spent half an hour just listening to him talk, interesting though.

Esther thought Chongyong math sums, and he was so funny. -.- haahhaha.

Chongyong is nice, and so is Esther.

So that's all for today.^^ Byeee and would update you again :)

She gives her all, in whatever ways she can, just to help a friend.
And this has gotten me to think.
When was the last time i gave myself full heartedly to a friendship?
To give without restrain, and expect nothing in return.
When?
When?
When can i do that for a friend?
I'm afraid, very afraid.
Cos of bad experiences ):
To give my all to any of my friendships..... freaks me out.
Vulnerable.

Why are you people so so nice?
So giving :)
I want to be like this tooo, a good person.

{2.12am}

2009-08-20T11:05:00.002+08:00

Where do i stand?
I dont know.
I dont like in the middle; I like all or nothing at all.

I hate this.
I dont know what to do.
Pfffffffffffffft ):

Do i make you proud.
Why.
SIGH.

Never mind.
Exams, exams, books, exams. Priority right now.
Cos i need to throw this feelings away.

Bad day.

2009-08-17T12:59:00.007+08:00

HIATUS.

Wont be blogging anymore till exams end.
And may not reply tags either.

Below is a super random post.
Read it at your own risk.

Today i almost lost my bike, and i fell down from it :(
Boooohooo. heng never lost anything. Like eyeballs or teeth or sth. :(

AND PLUS...... I dreamt PAUL TWOHILL WAS MY BF.
WTH.
HE WAS SMOKING AND STUFF.
SHIT.
SEE WHAT EXAMS ARE DOING TO ME.
HAHA.

And my other dreams at other nights are about ACADEMICS.

A few of the dreams are
(1) I dreamt about another BCOMM presentation and that Ms tan eng said i didnt do well. )':
(2) Dreamt about some exams or sth.
ALMOST EVERYDAY.
SHIT.
Forgot the rest.....

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Sorry.
I need a break.
Wont be going out, until exams end.
Yes, no social gatherings for me.
I think it's right to shy away from the crowd for awhile.
After all, i need that focus.

Stress from exams has magnified all my problems.
Hopefully, things can be alright.

Tried to study at MOS burger Sembawang.
Couldnt in the end. Too sleepy. I think i need to exercise first things first in the morning.
Wanted to tell my mum about all my problems, things that make me cry and break me, but i guess i need to be independant.....................I dont know. I'm just so sick of relying on my mum already. Emotionally dependant. I DONT WANT. I LIKE TO BE ON MY OWN ))):
I want to be independant. I want to have that strength.

God please help me. ):
I want to see valerie, soon.

I've made great improvement already. Steady hannah. Slowly, but surely :)

Good byeeee.

Things will be alright things will be alright x99999999999999999 ):

2009-08-16T11:41:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY FATIN!

Everyone go wish her!!!!:DDDD

5 months together. (hahaha we're not going steady or sth. i meant 5 months as friends)
And the education system threatens to stop us from being the same class :(
5 months is too short, just too short.
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Overdued photos.

Being retarded is what we do best.

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Friday: Cycled to chongpang and my hair got cut by a super hot japanese-looking guy. yay. hmm.
Saturday: Ben and Jerry's + Where Got ghost movie with Harold, Sharon and My mum. Laughed like hell. It's nice nice nice, story line animation wise not nice. But satisfaction wise nice nice (:
Sunday: Rotting day + studying.

I miss old friends, badly. :(
Specifically, primary 4 friends who have gone MIA in my life for so many years + Sec 2 friends outside of CCHY. :(
Miss you alll.
Extremely sentimental person. *SNIFFS.*

I need to exercise. So sleepy :O(
My muscle masses, they have all gone. All turned to tau hwey= FATS. :'(((((((
BOOOHOOO.
See what exams are doing to me.

On the other hand,
mugging is sometimes fun. SOMETIMES.
Like you feel happy when you complete something, or when you are able to understand something you have never understood.

And and, holidays, i want you to come sooon, okay?
Such a long list of things i want to do during holidays.
Oh my joy, oh my fulfillment. I need holidays.
Holidays NOT equals to rotting, but:
It's about being able to exercise almost everyday, go out with various people almost everyday, pick up hip hop, do my blogshop and wait for customers to purchase my products. Do all the things i truly like. Oh what fulfillment. :D

Good bye.

2009-08-13T13:24:00.002+08:00

I rode my bike, and blew mimosas today.
Sorry i didnt make it for study at amk today.

It never occurred to me that, maybe fat could be beautiful.

Jordin Sparks:)

You dont have to be model slim to be beautiful, nor do you have to fit into the world's view of beautiful.
Cos fat is beautiful.
Everyone is.
I'm beautiful.
:)
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2009-08-13T00:04:00.000+08:00

Current mood: Perfect- Simple Plan.

Sometimes i just need to fend for myself.
I feel that, yes people do care, but yet there is a limitation as to how much they can help.
I mean they can love you like hell, but they are after all human. They have feelings, tiredness........They cant be there for you 100% of the time.
A whirlwind of problems, 99% internally

Anyway, today i did some revision. Went to northpoint to look see look see. Mode of transport there was my bicycle :)

Yang yang was a joy as usual :o)

Went to esther's house, to see them eat dinner, but not eat dinner LOL.
Watched the Singapore idol auditions with them. Tell you something, watching that show is best with company :-)

Tmr studying at amk library.
I'm going to be like this for 3 weeks --> 8-),
After which i would be--> ^ D ^ v

Goodbye lovely people.

2009-08-11T11:56:00.001+08:00

Before i go to sleep....

Today only got 2 hours lesson, and home.

And it struck me that today is the last lesson. :(
Sat on the bus with Fatin as usual.
But this bus ride felt different.
It was our last bus ride.

Thank you so much for being part of my life for the past 5 months. :)
It's amazing how we are so similar, yet so different.
And looking back at all our crazy things we did together, how we both had sad days, happy days, high days BOTH AT THE SAME TIME, i dont regret knowing you :))

xx hannah.

2009-08-10T22:58:00.000+08:00

Knock knock.
*No answer*
Knock knock, again.
No one's there.

2009-08-09T23:12:00.001+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE!

I'm waiting for my ~~Mr Right~~ Mr beautifully imperfect.

Nice right, my new blogskin?
Hahas. I also find so :)
It's my very first time editting photos.
You got it, my first time.
Firstly, cos i've no photoshop and even if i have i dont know how to use- YET.
Secondly, i didnt even know photobucket.com has editting functions! Like omg.

How could i not know that.
Photobucket has AWESOME editing functions.
Really.
Still shocked that i didnt know that after owning a photobucket account for 5 years!!!!!!
o_o

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Everyone has somewhere where they truly belong.

And this is where i belong.

2009-08-09T02:39:00.000+08:00

HELLO!

Simple yet blessed time with the 6c peeps again :)
Wanted to watch HangOver, but time wasnt compatible.
Ended up slacking, then going out for supper. Fatfat.

Then me and charis took really a lot of crazy pics. :D Hahahs. Love her.
Hannah is a happy girl.
See:

I really need to study alr. Cant let all the days go wasted.

Photos of me and charis only:

More photos to be uploaded again~

2009-08-08T20:21:00.002+08:00

Dancing
Just would like to talk about this aspect of my life.
I wont get tired of repeating it over and over again.

Danced since i was 6. Yes, 6.

6 years
My aunty was teaching others how to dance for a church event.
I was keen on what she was doing,
So i decided to learn from her.
And i learnt it pretty fast.
And i enjoyed it uber much : D

My aunty thought i was talented and have a great interest in it.
She asked my mum to send me to a dance studio.
And my mum did.

Primary1-Primary4
Learnt kids funky jazz there, for 3 years?
Each week 1 time, after sunday school.

But then,
the dance instructor told me that i was slow in learning the dance steps.
That's why i was still in Level 1 and took very long to progress to Level 2.
It hurt me.

I quitted the dance school due to boredom.

Primary4-Primary5
Joined ES(Eternal Splashes) shortly after.
A performing group of the ARTS. In terms of dancing, singing, etc.
Learnt slap dancing, line dancing, cultural dances, mime dancing, etc.
Not hip hop those kind.
But a church friend, melodie, didnt go lerh, so i didnt go also.

Primary 5-Sec1
Took part in church dances.
SonicFest04, and SonicFest05.:D
Still remembered.
The church dances thought i danced well.

Sec1
Joined chinese dance, since my school got no modern dance.

Didnt get in to the chinese dance auditions. Thought i could. A heavy blow.Shocked.

I told the chinese male instructor, i wanted to get in, cos i loved dance.
He reluctantly ticked my name, which means that i would get in alr.

And i did get in. :)

But that's just the beginning of all of it.

Was despised / insulted by people.
Not only that.
I couldnt take part in any dance performances cos i was too fat back then.
And even if i could, i was always put at the back, so that maybe i wont be seen?

Seniors came class by class to make announcements.
I dreaded that.
As i felt judgemental glares at me from my classmates.
That i was a chinese dancer.
But just that i was almost twice as big as the others.

Was really very demoralized.

And sec 2 i decided to make a change.
I would lose weight.

Sec2
I lost 8kg, and 4 kg at the later part of sec 2.
The dance group accepted me a bit more.
But i was still one of the biggest girls in the dance group.

There was modern dance only from this year onwards, and i joined both chinese and modern dance.

I was the reserve for SYF.....But cos a few seniors were not committed, i officially became one of the SYF performers.

The modern dance teacher said something to me like i'm very nerdy or sth, but i have talent for dancing.
But i didnt pay attention much, so maybe i hear wrong.
Did i hear wrong?
Did i hear wrong?
Wanted to ask him again, but never in the end.

Sec3
SYF for chinese dance came.
Performed and it was an experience of a lifetime.

We got SILVER.

Sec4
Stepped down from chinese dance.

PolyYear1
Wanted to join NRA(hip hop dance group)
Thought i could get in, since i got alot of dance background.

I was wrong.

Didnt get in both times, was i really that bad in dancing?
Confidence crushed, feeling so numb.

Conclusion:
After everything,
I still dont know whether i'm truly good at dancing or not.
And i still dont know if people think i cant dance cos of my size, or really cos i cannot dance.

But dancing, is still a big part of me.
However, it's not like my career or sth.
It's just a hobby.
But still, it's a passion of mine :)

And i hope i can find the strength to say,
Hey, even though i may not be good at dancing.
But guess what?
I LIKE dancing.
And you cant stop me from doing something i like :)

So studio wu, hannah's coming in a month's time. :)
And she's going to enjoy herself and not care what anyone says.

2009-08-08T09:18:00.000+08:00

Changed my music playlist!
Chio right the skin. heheh.
And these are my fav songs :) Not the best hits, but my very own favourite.

Cycling or swimming later.
Start studying at 11am. :)

Bye people.

2009-08-07T22:08:00.003+08:00

With so much love.

Today school started late, like 1pm? :D:D:D:D:D:D:D
So stayed around at home and stuff.
If only school everyday was 3 hours,the world would be a better place.

Anyway, yangyang came as usual, and played with him.
He is such a joy, and he's smarter now.
You say: Fang pi
He goes: *PUTTTTT* (Makes the farting sound)

You say: Xia yu (Raining in chinese)
He goes: Ya yu ya yu ya yu(Attempt to say what you say)

You say: Pai pai shou (Clapping hands in chinese)
He goes: *CLAP CLAP* and smiles widely.

There are so many things he can do right now. 11months old in 2 days. 1 year old in 1 month and 2 days.
Time really flies.

Spent some time with my old flame.
Old flame= my bicycle which i havent cycled for months, ever since sch started.
Cycled for a short while, cycled down the slopes

With all the love in your life, how can you say that you're unfortunate?

BCOMM presentations were funnaye to watch.

INFA revision lecture, copied down notes and all.

Sec school clique outing.
Juetong couldnt come.
Next time we arrange a full house one horh? ^^

Saw timoooo the ex-emmooooooo.
Asked him to maybe join us, but he didnt want to.

But it was pretty funn.
Such a rare time together.
Reminisced(spell correctly or not?) about the times we shared.
E.g: We had dinner together, and i was the only one who ordered a drink(not counting 2 people who copied me later XD lols). Cos last time i am the only one who ordered a drink.

Do you girls miss me as much as i miss you?

Took photos:

ZIHAN!

Huichin!XD

And finally, Eeting (:

JUBEAT-ed.
As usual i failed KissKiss Level6. Think it was failing just by a small margin only.
I miss that machine.

Watched hangover!
OMG. Huichin laughing like crap siah, i think i also. Then zihan also kept laughing! Was a really really really really cool and funny show.
By far the most laughs. Haha.
Really really, everyone should go watch. ._.

Homed with mrt.

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WTH IS WRONG WITH MY BLUE TOOTH.): CANT SEND PHOTOS PROPERLY.
HATE SONY ERICSSON.

Anyway, a picture after my ITB presentation:

Bye everyone (:

2009-08-06T19:06:00.000+08:00

And suddenly shit happened.
There was this girl who had everything she wished for- loads of fun friends, a supportive family, with leadership roles, with caring teachers. and suddenly shit happened- depression came. And now with most of her confidence lost, she has a raw scar left behind. That girl is me.

There was this girl who had a degree in medicine. totally smart. and suddenly shit happened- a car accident came. And now with most of her physical abilities gone, all she has left is for her to pick up the pieces and start learning how to walk again. That girl is my cousin.

There was this girl who was the eldest in her family. She didnt have everything, but she was young and innocent, with lots of suitors. and suddenly shit happened- she met my father. And now with my father lost, she has picked up the pieces already, but is struggling as a single mum. That girl is my mum

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So.. back to the topic. Shit does happen, isnt it? You felt so perfect, that everything was going your way, and suddenly, *BOOM* crap happens, leaving you to pick up the pieces.

But i mean, isnt it life?

SCARS.
SCARS.
Raw and painful scars.
I have one

"The scars may take 1 day to heal, 1 year, or even 10 years."
Guess what? I would be waiting for that raw raw and bloody o scar to heal. To heal, with time.

So i'm giving myself: 17-27, to wait for everything to heal.
Healing is painful, maybe even more painful then when the incident happened.
But let it heal, let it heal.
And slowly, the scar fades away.
And when you look back,
All you see is your persistence.
That you have not given up this life.

2009-08-03T18:59:00.000+08:00

Hello there.

I'm on the computer COS of project, and not cos i have a lack of self control okays. ._. LOL.
So anyway, today was another typical yet beautiful beautiful day. :)
Cos i've never felt such peace for a very long time.
Peace♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ A feeling that tells you that everything will be alright.

And i think that i may conquer just about anything, but if only if i have perseverance ^^
After all, me and fatin are the DDDs. Domineering-Determined-Duet. Dont play play LOL.

Yangyang came early to my house and i spent 5 mins with him. very short, but better than nothing. love him to bits. XD

Cant wait to wear my formal wear. hehe.
Cant wait for holidays to come. *SAD FEELING* ):
Cant wait to see Valerie on thursday!
Cant wait to see my sec school clique on friday!
Cant wait to bake cookies!
Cant wait to wear my new clothes!
Cant wait to do many many things :)

Happy happy, hannah must be happy.

ITB presentation tmr! Gonna prepare a little barh, later.
Bcomm presentation on thursday...... nervousy but i must be confident. (:
HOMEWORK HOMEWORK. Feel so back, esp when i see everyone doing accounting at a so much faster speed. I want to be motivated, seeing myself putting in much effort, and feeling satisfied in the end.
JIAYOU HANNAH :D

And and cheer up louis! :DDDDD Jiayou.

Bye world.

2009-08-02T23:35:00.000+08:00

Esther, thank you for pei-ing me go shopshop today :DD

Spent $100 + dollars on: Formal long sleeve, Formal skirt, and 2 other tops. Not bad. Homed at 11pm. Totally dont feel like doing bstats tutorial but i guess i have tooo. Exams are coming.

Bye homosapiens.

2009-08-02T02:17:00.002+08:00

It's 2.30am now and i'm not yet asleep (:

Today was a rather accomplished day, judging from my other super lazy and procrastinating saturdays, cos at least i did something. ARGHS. Really have to buck up liaos, cos exams are coming.

6C study group today, not really a study session.
Quite a number of people came today :DDD
Saw Charis, very long time never see her liao.

Went back early, but instead tagged along to Esther's house.
Called each other funny names.
Buangster, boingster, etc.
Carrot, Banana, Celery.
Hahah.
Studied a little, slept for 1 hour and felt so refreshed. :D

Itinerary tmr:

-Swimming at 9am-11am
-Study till 11am- 6pm
-Shopping with esther for formal clothes, hip hop clothes and sports wear :DD Gonna bring a lot of money but please dont rob me. I'm pooor ):

2009-08-01T16:29:00.000+08:00

The computer has been a MAJOR distraction to me.
So i've decided to abstain myself from computer, starting from today till next sunday, except 2 days. Tomorrow(cos need to finish up ITB), and wednesday(to print notes)
Then see how things go luhs :) yays.

2009-08-01T00:27:00.002+08:00

~~Brokenness~~
Dont.
Dont give up.
Never ever do.
You know the thought of people hurting inside hurts me :'(
You know it does.
Cos i understand the hurt, i know it.

Anyway, I'm looking forward to lots of things.

I would love to bake cookies.
I would love to go shopping and carry lotsa shopping bags home, feeling satisfied.
I would love to have more study sessions with 6C.
I would love to join DANCESPORTS.
I would love to dance hip hop again, even though people think i may not be very good at it.
I would love to laugh with friends and be happy.

Life has a lot to offer,but only if you embrace it.
Tightly. :)

2009-07-29T21:37:00.002+08:00

Some of the CATS photos.

It may not make sense to you. But yeah.
Just to show the pics:

2009-07-28T23:07:00.001+08:00

Apparently there is something wrong with my bluetooth so i cant upload any photos. Sucks!!!! ):

So anyway, just came back home and all....... Super duper shacked. I miss my baby boy cousin cos i cant see him(he leaves at like 7pm while i come back home at 10.30pm). Never see him for so many days liao, i think 1 week? OMG.

CATS meetup was eventful today. We took stupid pics and all. Haha funny. I think the class might enjoy our presentation a little better tmr cos of the pics :D Yoges and liangli left first, then left me and siewling. Bought 2 sandwiches for dinner. ._. Is it too much?? Cos i scared to get fat.

INFA test today. Chionged like a mad dog. LOL. Something like SS, only that it's maths instead of essay.
Played waka-waka before infa test. I broke my high score liaos. LOL. Fatin started playing today too. She plays very cutely. -.-

SIGH. Thinking about chionging to do CATS till the wee hours of the morning makes me feel so sleepy. Can i just sleep?? I know it's out of the question. LOL.Sorry Yoges for telling you to stay up so late just to print for us ):

Anyway, hannah is a superwoman. And i'll fly to my project now. ._.

Life is great.
But something is lacking in my life right now- dance :D
Soon soon, i tell myself :D

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I need to blog about this right now,
If not there would be this gnawing sore in my heart.):

So right.

I used to like you. Yes, you. Remember? I guess you still do.
And i hope you read this, cos i really hope you would listen.Will you?

We used to be friends, just casual ones. 2-3 months back?

Then i started to like you. And i told you that i did. But you told me that you didnt like me.
And you backed off. I could see it. I started to back off too.
The awkwardness was unbearable.
Seeing you everyday was a pain.

And then i started to hate you.
Cursed you for making me feel so awkward, so inferior, etc.
And i started to pass mean remarks about you behind your back. Cos i felt inferior lorh ):
Hais, feel so bad about it.

You casually told me that you had a crush and you were hurt from it.
Well guess what, SO WAS I?

But then it wasnt your fault.
You were nice about it.
After all, reciprocating back love is a choice, isnt it?
But yet.

Later on, i realised that it isnt true love, it's just called infatuation.
And i dont know why i still bear so much bitterness, even after so so many months.
But i hope i find the strength to forgive.
I hope i find the strength to love myself, and know that there will be someone out there that loves me for who i am. I hope.

Okay, i believe, alright? (Since gordon says "I believe" is better than "I hope") Haha.

Just so you know.

I really hope you read this, cos then i can find comfort in knowing that you understand. Understand why i'm acting this way. I hope you read this.

2009-07-27T21:06:00.002+08:00

Today is a long and tired day, yet pretty funny as well xD

Met fatin at OurSpace as usual.
We talked about BLOGSHOPS and all.
OMG.
Love blogshops, and even love being the owner of blogshops :)

So yeah.
i'm intending to do 2 blogshops- 1 is the SWEETCONCOCTIONS one, and 1 is the apparels(but a little pricey) one.
Gonna become self employed during the holidays, and $$$ will flow in xD

So yup.
Ate sandwich at OURSPACE.
Did MIEC project and managed to almost complete.
Cloned people on msn and it was so funnaye XD
HAHAHAHAHAHAH.
Very long never have so much laughter lerh XD

Then we cloned Juetong's nickname.
4 people cloned her haha.
And added her to the convo.
She started being angry, can feel.
Dont angry lah juetong, it's a joke only.

Totally never listen to ITB.
Dont know what the hell it's all about.
Should read on my own sometime.
Hmmmmmm.

Ended school and went over to do my CATS project.
Felt a bit frustrated cos left so much things to do, have so little time.
Sorry girls if i'm too pushy/impatient, but i just want to get the job done, so i hope you girls will understand.

Talked with Eeting for a while, on msn.
We were talking about coincidences.
Like how we were doing projects in school till late at night.
Then out project is due on wednesday.
And when we on webcam, we wearing the same coloured tee also!
LOL
-.-

But anyway, reached home at 8.45pm.
Feel like sleeping in bed but yet need to study INFA MCQ.
Never mind, kampatehhh! :D

2009-07-26T20:34:00.000+08:00

Today is old-friends-catch-up-day.

i met eeting at amk library for a while. LOVE. Very long time never see her liao. laughed and all. :)
Then talked to huichin and juetong on msn.
I miss my secondary school clique :(
Not to mention 4H :(

So uhhh, anyway, life's great i guess. Cos i'm going shopping on Wednesday! :D YAYS.
Have some extra money, cos my mum got like bonus. She gave me like 200 dollars to shop. WAHAHAAHS. I bet you're jealous now.

And and, i cant wait for holidays!

I cannot depend on you too much,
If not you will feel so burdened.
I need to be more independent..
Cos this is what people call a healthy friendship.

2009-07-25T16:57:00.001+08:00

Out of the 6 billion people in this world,
i'm one of them.

Am i significant, enough? Enough to mean much to your life?

2009-07-25T14:29:00.003+08:00

Feeling so fat.
Havent been exercising. Hais ):
I want to join dance sports with fatin + dance in the holidays + gym + swimming. ): BADLYBADLY MANY MANY. )):

Anyway, yesterday was fun with my CATS members, especially Siewling. (: Had a great time laughing and all.. After that went over to MACS to study a little with 6c as usual.

And,i'm going to REOPEN MY BLOGSHOP. Going to officially sell things during the school holidays. So yup (:

You could check it out now, but not all the items are posted up/skin is not ready.

SWEETCONCOCTIONS
SWEETCONCOCTIONS
SWEETCONCOCTIONS
SWEETCONCOCTIONS
SWEETCONCOCTIONS

And sometimes, giving up is a choice.
So dont (:

2009-07-24T08:52:00.001+08:00

Blogger is back to normal, yayness (:

Trying.

Nothing much to update about, except that i'm flooded with a lot of projects and tutorials. T_T

And mum says i'm a good bargainer.I think so toooo.haha.

Bye.

2009-07-21T19:08:00.004+08:00

Oh what's the problem with me.
I wish i was stronger.
I wish i didnt cracked that easily.
I wish i were able to give up all the bitterness and hatred that i know bear behind.
But how come it seems so hard? )':

Bad news/Wake up call/Whatever you want to call it:
Failed BSTATS, my favourite subject.
What a blow.

During the class, when i knew about my results,i told everyone that it was alright with a smile, including the teacher, that i am going to try harder and not give up.
Everyone was deceived by my denial.
So was i.

But when i was alone, i suddenly felt the impact.
The impact of everything going haywired.

I am not okay with this results.
I am not okay with who i am right now.
I am not okay with how little enthusiasm i have towards my studies and life.
I am not okay with so much hatred and bitterness that i bear.
I am not okay with my sucky persimmism; I want my optimism back.
I am not okay with my low self confidence. It SUCKS LIKE CHICKEN NENE and if it were a person, i would bash it up with all my might.
I am not okay with emotional eating.
I am not okay with living a life of no purpose.
I am not okay with NOT letting go of the past.
I am not okay with being paranoid of what people will think about me yadayadayada. IT SUCKS AND I SHOULD QUIT IT.
I am not okay with envying people who are smarter, prettier, and with a wider social circle than me, when actually i got my own strengths too.
I am not okay with worrying about what people may think of me.
I am not okay with succumbing to temptations.
I am not okay with procrastinating in my studies.
I am not okay with telling my mother than i am not okay all the time.
I am not okay for tears shed due to me being emo.
I am not okay for being indifferent or hostile to my friends just cos i'm emo.

I am certainly discouraged. )':
I really need a change in myself. I really do need it.

I WANT HOPE I WANT HOPE I WANT HOPE.

I know what went wrong with my studies last week.
1. Emotions.
2. Emotions.
3. Emotions.
Yeap, this are the 3 reasons.

Hannah, time to stand strong and buck up.
Cos you are so worth the fight.
Dont hate yourself just cos you're crushed for the moment.
There are so many things to improve, to buck up on.

Ultimately,
it is only me who can make myself buck up.
And not anyone else.
I dont need anyone to tell me i can conquer this, cos most importantly it is me who needs to tell myself that and believe in myself
So brace yourself girl.

IT'S NOT THE END YET.

Hope keeps people going.
Tell yourself that you're going to be fine, and you will be.
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Things that i wish to accomplish.

Before the holidays
(In other words, exams).

1. Study hard for all subjects! ITB, INFA, MIEC, BSTATS. At least G.P.A=3.5! :)
2. Make my last BCOMM presentation a good one. No guarantee, but at least i must see myself as putting in the effort! :D
3. Write cards for the teachers. Mr Miec/worm (Sorry i forgot his surname), Mrs Kendra, Ms Karen Quah, and MS TAN ENG (:
4. Bake for the class.

During the holidays.

1.Lose 6 kg(That means 3 kg /month)
2.Open blogshop again.
3. Join studio wu, and gain back my passion for dance.Ideal would be esther and eeting to tag along. Loves.
4.Have a job for a few days.
5.Go volunteer somewhere.
6.Go shopping.
7.Go cruise with mum.
(:

2009-07-19T11:39:00.002+08:00

And that's what i'm going to do,
To learn to love myself a little more.

2009-07-18T22:44:00.003+08:00

It was 6.40am in the morning, and when i opened my door, there was a Mars Bars Chocolate outside. Thanks to ______, made me feel very touched :D

Presentation on friday. We were like the last of the last to present.
After this presentation, i realised that i'm not so scared of presenting lerhs.
Fear of presenting dropped by around 50%.... Cool right :)

2009-07-16T20:56:00.002+08:00

Today was one of the better days i had, and it's cos maybe i started off the day with EXERCISE :D

Came to school 1 hour earlier to GYMWERKZ, and exercised there. WHOA. Throughout the day i feel so freshed manzzzz. But ended up being complacent and ate alot.

So anyway, BSTATS lecture was first. It was on hypothesis testing. Dont know what the hell it is about. Getting harder and harder. Then this silly thing happened. The lecture suddenly got all angry and stuff and banged the table with his fists and sitted on the table like a little kid =.= I was like what the hell, why bother to make a mountain of a molehill.... But anyway, the angry atmosphere faded a little.

BCOMM presentations were interesting to watch :D

Then at night i dated my mum and we went to eat 2gt. Loves my mum, always so gentle, supporting and loving. Anyway, ate curry rice at PEPPER LUNCH. Treated mummy to yoghurt after that..... Thank you for being my best friend :D

And bcomm presentation tmr. SIGH.

I WANT TO OOVOOO SOMETIME. D; never tried before. hmph.

2009-07-15T13:20:00.002+08:00

1.26pm.

Sorry fatin i was not there with you today.
I havent started studying for BSTATS........ yet. I will start in 10 mins, i promise :)

Yesterday was quite an emotional day for me. So was yesterday's yesterday. And so was yesterday's yesterday's yesterday. It just seems that i've become a whole lot emotional this past few weeks. And it's not even P.M.S.

And i think, somewhere along the line, i've lost my hope that i've once had. My optimism, my hope, my courage..... has been replaced by bitterness sadness and all. ); In other words, like how i was last time.... emo and quiet.

I hope i can buck up and live my life loud.

2009-07-14T07:33:00.002+08:00

THIS IS MY NOW-JORDIN SPARKS.
(It's in my music player)

There was a time I packed my dreams away.
Living in a shell, hiding from myself.

There was a time when I was so afraid.
I thought I'd reached the end,
But baby that was then
I am made of more than my yesterdays.

This is my now, and I am breathing in the moment.
As I look around
I can't believe the love I see.
My fears behind me, gone are the shadows and doubt
That was then, this is my now.

I have to decide,
Was I gonna play it safe.
Or look somewhere deep in side,
Try to turn the tide,
And find the strength to take that step of faith.

This is my now, and I am breathing in the moment.
As I look around
I can't believe the love I see.
My fears behind me, gone are the shadows and doubt
That was then, this is my now.

And I have the courage like never before, yeah.
I've settled for less now I'm ready for more,
Ready for more.

This is my now, and I am breathing in the moment.
As I look around I can't believe the love I see.
My fears behind me, gone are the shadows and doubt
That was then, this is my now.

I'm living in the moment
I look around I can't believe the love I see.
My fears behind me, gone are the shadows and doubt
That was then, this is my now.
This is my now.

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I cannot be like this anymore.
Bearing grudges and digging up the past.
I cannot do this.

I need to live and stand up for myself.
I NEED TO STAND UP FOR MYSELF.
No more i will think of __________, from this moment.

I want to be a group project leader, no matter how insignificant it may be.
I want to exercise for myself, knowing that i will be healthier after all that.
I want to be a good friend, knowing that i will get much fun and so much love back.
I want to be a good person, helping others in times of distress.

2009-07-12T11:46:00.001+08:00

Today,
I cancelled going to Lighthouse with Charis.
I cancelled going to prawning with 6c.
I cancelled making a police report for my blogshop

COS I GOT A LOT OF HOMEWORK AND PROJECTS ):

And sometimes i wonder if i'll ever become a good enough christian.

2009-07-12T11:46:00.000+08:00

Today,
I cancelled going to Lighthouse with Charis.
I cancelled going to prawning with 6c.
I cancelled making a police report for my blogshop

COS I GOT A LOT OF HOMEWORK AND PROJECTS ):

2009-07-11T23:07:00.001+08:00

BUSY BUSY BUSY.
Like a bumble beeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

2009-07-10T18:57:00.003+08:00

I HAVE A SMALL SMALL GOOD NEWS ! :D
Which sort of made me day (:

Got lotsa things to say in this post kkkk, so bear with me (:

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So me and Fatin went GYM-ED at our school's gym during our break,
and when i weighed myself.......
I LOST 1 KG!
I LOST 1 KG!
I LOST 1 KG!
:D
IN 1 WEEEEEEEEEEEEK!~

You may ask, it isnt alot what, lose so little only.
(Hope the weighing scale does not decieve me alright! D:)

But i'm SUPER DUPER FRAGALISTIC happy happy happy can?!
That means if i consistenly for a few more weeks, more "1kgs" would be lost, and soon i will loook nicer :D

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HAPPY HAPPY.
Cos i felt my efforts sort of recognised....
Have been exercising consecutively every day :)
And i'm going to exercise tmr and the day after next tooooo! WHEEEE~
A bit addicted to exercising now :D
Makes me feel healthy, and not very boring also :DDDDD

So now, you need an exercise buddy, you know to find already okay!
(POINTS TO MYSELF)

Currently:
Gym buddies: Fatin, yueyang, esther(khatib gym).
Swimming buddie(s): My mum :X Lols.
Dance buddies: THAT WOULD BE DURING THE HOLIDAYS. Cos no time to learn dancing now D: D:

So if you're my friend, and want to do any of these(above), tell me okay okay?

KK.
:D

So um anyway, off to MACDONALDS to study with 6C Later.
Hais.
I'm deeply distraught in terms of my studies.
Never study= Never even touch books when i get home!
Monday, tuesday, wednesday, thursday never study you know!
Only wednesday have, which is do project. D:
I feel very worried for my studies, but at the same time i'm like avoiding it... Cos i... dont know where to start.
SUCKS. The feeling of not doing well for exams SUCKS BIG TIME. ):
Should start.
CAN SOMEONE PUSH ME.

So i'm going to write a timetable and my study goals today :)
To place myself out of that studied-procrastinating-position. :)

LOVE ME FRIENDS.
You all keep me going ! ;)
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Oh my... jeans.
I did something stupid today. ):

I wanted to see how far i could stretch myself.....You know like chinese dance, they lift their legs up high?? Cos last time quite good at it.
Then then.... I did it, in like public while waiting for class to start.
AND THEN WHEN I WANTED T LIFT MY JEANS HIGH, MY JEANS...... TORE.
My nice nice jeans, need to be sent for sewing liaos ):
And not to mention the face i lost when my jeans tore ):

And Sharlynn was nice to lend me her black cardigan, even though i never use it :)
Thanks horhs. You're so kind to lend me ^^

So yeah, that's about it for today :)
LOVE LOVE LOVE.

Tommorow is studying(10am, school library) with Edwin Edwin's2FRIENDS, Changqi, Changqi's1FRIEND, Weiting, Zachary, Fatin and Me. Hopefully we will accomplish much barh^^
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Gave in to love,
and watched all the bitterness burn.

Emotionally affected.
When i look at you, i feel bitter and upset.
Yet, i cannot feel that way anymore.
Cos feeling like this DOES NOT HELP A SINGLE THING.
So i hope i can be strong, and stand up for myself.
And not be affected anymore- by the whole thing, by you.
Yes, you.

2009-07-10T18:57:00.000+08:00

I HAVE GOOD NEWS ! :D
Which sort of made me day (:

I LOST 1 KG!
I LOST 1 KG!
I LOST 1 KG!
:D
You may ask, it isnt alot what, happy for

2009-07-09T14:34:00.003+08:00

At ITB lecture right now.
It's so boring.... ); Sigh. Have ALOT ALOT to catch up......
I am not sure of, literally, all the topics? ARGH.

BSTATS lecture as usual today.
I like bstats (:

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So yesterday was christian fellowship. There was a special guest speaker and all. And during worship, i really felt such great peace in my heart. Went back home right after that as got project. \:
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It was the first time webcamming, for Fatin........BCOMM was rather slack, and hence we decided to do stupid things......

Like webcamming when we’re sitting right beside each other -.-

POKE YOU.

BABY BABY~~~

HAH. Aik He and Cher Han didn’t seem to realise that we were taking like photos of them o_o

But so anyway, i laughed alot and all. Like awww. How i wish i was this happy everyday, outgoing and void of moodswings )’:

P/s: ITB STILL SUCKS.
P/p/s: Later i’m going gym with Esther; I exercised for 3 consecutive days liao, feel so good about myself :DD

2009-07-06T13:47:00.003+08:00

A typical school day with nice people. (:

Fatin and me. :)

o_o

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Heard that zac efron kena smitten by megan fox(the transformer's girl), and then vanessa hudgens so poor thing );
Sigh. Something random.

Slept late last night, cos want to chiong homework.... Darn sleepy. I have to buck up on my time management.

Nothing much luhs.
Life is getting boring, like a routine.... );
I want holidays- to work for maybe 2 weeks, open blogshop, hang out with people, and shop!!! Instead of studying about databases and poisson distributions and crap. OH WELL.

Bye, world peace! :D

I need humility.
Not to mention UM exercise as well. Hah.

2009-07-05T23:27:00.005+08:00

{CHANGE IN 5 YEARS}

SEC1 - POLY YEAR 1.

PURE ENTERTAINMENT~
HAHAH ZOMG DONT BE SHOCKED! :P

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Sec 1.
Fat fat year ):

HAHAH this is hideous..... really ._.
Glad i'm slimmer now.

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Sec 2.
Lost weight year!

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Sec 3.
My chioest year.

WHOA, I THINK SEC 3 I THE CHIO-EST OF ALL THE YEARS SEH. ._.
I think i fall in love with myself liao~ :X

Rebonded hair and least weight~~

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Sec 4.

The weight gain back year D:

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MONTHS AFTER THE WEIGHT CAME BACK AGAIN DUE TO STRESS.
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POLY YEAR 1.

The current year.
The current me lorhs~~~
Dont need to show right??

HAHAHA BUT YEAH.

:D
So..........That's all folks! :D

2009-07-05T19:14:00.004+08:00

IT'S A TEXT FILLED POST AND I DONT CARE!:D

My mum's prayer for me (In her private blog):

Dear God,
I commit my dear hannah to you. I learnt that You are bigger than the problems we face and I am going to totally surrender them to You.
God, I pray that you will tear down the deceptive spirit that is deceiving her and causing her to unable to see You and Your love for her.
Cause her to look at creation, nature to be able to ponder the wonders of God.
Let nature once again to be able to speak itself and point her to the Great creator.
We pray for clarify of mind, confusion has no place in her mind, Lord.
Help this young life to be able to live life full of God's joy though at times situations may be tough for her.
Help her to recognise that she is a child of God and she has to accept it by faith.
Let God reveal Himself to her once again and let her experience a mighty encounter with our God.
In Your mighty name I pray,
Amen!

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LOVE.
My grannie sort of did a will a few days back, and willed everything to my mother, cos she's the oldest.
I hate the thought of this, cos it's like preparation for the big word called..................................DEATH.
HATE DEATH HATE DEATH HATE DEATH. $#*#U#^&$*##*&HATE DEATH HATE DEATH HATE DEATH. $#*#U#^&$*##*&$&#.
amp;#.
SIGH.
I hate death.
I dont like the thought of someone precious dying,
~~but it's something i would have to face.~~

But it's okay,
Cos i tell her i love her everyday anyway. :)

So anyway,
My grannie and mum's love is bigger than any obstacles that i will face. :)

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Lighthouse with Charis today.
After that she came over to my house.
Wanted to teach her how to do a blogshop but she say no moood :X
So in the end we went around JI-SIAOING 6c peeps online, video calling them one by one. HAH.

Well she left at 4pm. I love you charis (:
Liked talking to you.

and i started on my BSTATS tutorial. Can concentrate, felt happy :D
and yes, i havent been concentrating very well on my studies cos i have been emo-ing and stuff like that.

But i will get better and handle my emotions better each and every day dont worry.
I may not be emotionally stable instantly, but it's a process and i'll try to, you know, NOT EMO, and think positively.

So anyway, projects here i come!

2009-07-05T00:04:00.001+08:00

Sakae sushi buffet with 6c today (:
Thank you guys for cheering me up.
From D: to (:

So anyway, this few days i have been pretty emo. Me realised myself too alright.
But i tried to smile, but i cant help but feel sad.
And the thing is, i dont know why.
Maybe cos i have been too self centered this days, just thinking about my problems and not seeing the needs of others.

SIGH.
I hate my moodswings :/

So things will be better right??
Hope so :)

I'm going swimming tommorow morning, around 7am, then church at lighthouse (:

2009-07-02T18:42:00.003+08:00

Random photos:

2009-07-01T14:00:00.004+08:00

We got A+! :D
We got A+! :D
We got A+! :D
We got A+! :D
We got A+! :D

Today is a good day. (:
My CATS team cheered me up alot! Cos before that i was in a bad mood D:
So anyway, I really really really want to blog about this, cos this is not a day to forget (:

And i know that CATS(Creativity and Applied Thinking Skills) is not as important as other subjects, but still. :DD

TEAM MEMBERS:

Serene
Serene! Always confuse her name with Siewling. haha. :D
And then she is a good sport in our team lorhs, always contributing and supporting.

SiewLing

So far i'm closest to her in the whole group (;

Cos we always sit beside each other during class an all. Never fail to lighten up the mood with her happy go lucky attitude ^^ Quite smart too. I like you :)

JunHan

Always quiet yet always smiling.

Adrian
I never spell your name wrongly OK!!!

Really cute team member, and very supportive as well (:

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You guys are by far the best group mates i ever had in NGEE ANN okay! :)

It's not ALL about the grades, but rather it is really really the process.

I still remember when we first met each other as a group.
I thought my group mates were very quiet, very passive.
And i was like the noisy one. x_x

But it was not long before we started to open up to each other.
There was this strong chemistry between us.

And during discussions,
We do NOT put down each other's opinions.
We do NOT remain so passive during discussions.
We do NOT judge each other's viewpoints.

I was also made the leader.

And then CATS assignment 1 came up.
I was initially quite frustrated cos the 2 boys didnt put enough effort(that's what i felt)..... maybe cos CATS wasnt that important in the first place.

But then, it's ok.... I tried doing more of the work anyways.

We met up at AMK library, and did a script for our skit!! (:
Then the next week we met up again to coordinate our speech and all
Made hats to illustrate the thinking hats, really put in more effort lah.

But anyway, we presented on the following Wednesday and all, things went pretty okay, even though it wasnt perfect.
I was expecting at least a B today...... I was like, please give us a B+, B+ PLEASE!!!!!

Then SiewLing told me, hannah we got good marks for our presentation!!!
Then i was like, really really??
I leaned on to Serene cos i felt really touched.
Then teacher told us we got A, in fact an A+ ! (:
WHOA LAO.
OVER THE MOON LIAO :D

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I've learned that being a leader is NOT EASY AT ALL....
what more being a good leader.
I've always wanted to be a leader, maybe cos it's simply my character to like being so.......
But once i've gotten the position, it doesnt seem that easy anymore.

You have to coordinate many things.
You have to work with different personalities.
You may and will have to reject some of the group members' opinions in a very tactful way.
You have to make everyone feel accepted.
You have to respect everyone.
You have to work well under pressure.

Well, hope that i get such opportunities next time, and if i dont, then it's alright also :D
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I'm not emooooo anymore!
Yay, no more emoing hannah. (:

2009-07-01T10:07:00.001+08:00

I'm no longer happy anymore.
Everything is so problematic.
Is it me, or it the others?

2009-06-30T17:06:00.003+08:00

Drought.

Yesterday was such a horrendous day, but i managed to wake up today with a smile and still go to school.

Many things have been going on, not external, but internal..... and sometimes i just feel very intimidated by even my own emotions.

My grades:
A A B+ B+ C+.................................C+ for ITB (computer based subject. One word: SIAN).
I gotta do better for INFA and ITB. :)

I can do it. I can do it.I can do it.I can do it.I can do it.I can do it.I can do it.I can do it.I can do it.I can do it.I can do it.I can do it.I can do it.I can do it.I can do it.I can do it.I can do it.I can do it.I can do it.I can do it.I can do it.I can do it.I can do it.I can do it.I can do it.I can do it.I can do it.I can do it.I can do it.I can do it.I can do it.I can do it.I can do it.I can do it.I can do it.I can do it.

So can you. (:

2009-06-28T19:32:00.002+08:00

I know.

I know i'm supposed to go on a hiatus....... But i cant help it! AHAHAHAH.

1. School's starting tommorow, and i'm going to be real focused, but not to the extent of stressing myself out. Cos after all, it's an "exam term". :)
BEAUTY IN BRAINS ;)

2. Sorry if i wont be able to make it for social gatherings such as 6c ones as much as i did during the holidays cos things may get too hectic and stuff. So yup.

3. I would like to be an all-rounder- Someone who exercises and stays healthy, someone who tries hard to study for a good future, someone who has time for friends and family, and finally someone who has time for God.

4. I know that i like my own religion, christianity alot. And i know that some friends of mine are not christians. So rest assured i wont force my beliefs down your throat. But do accept that i am christian after all and i'm willing to appreciate the differences between us. Not that there is a particular "us" though.

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Today was a nice day (:

Today went to Zachary's church. Met him at serangoon and all, at 8am!!!! And i slept at 4am o.o

Charis tagged along and we attended Sunday School.
It's cute how they separate the boys from the girls... but i still think they should be given some interaction time between both the sexes.

A bible verse that struck me:
Do not work for food that spoils, but for which the Son of Man will give you. On him God the father has placed a seal of approval.
-John 6:27.

Homed with charis, gave the TYSes to her, and then went into a long long sleeep, like 4 hours. Hahas. (:

Woke up, and headed to northpoint to eat with my mum. TEPPANYAKI!!!!
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I guess will see you around, blog.

Love everyone.
(L)

2009-06-27T12:48:00.004+08:00

GOING ON A HIATUS!

For 1 day, 1 week, 1 month or even 1 year.
Cos after all school's starting, there's gonna be loads of homework and projects, and i dont think i will have the time and energy to constantly update. Yup.
Will promise to be back though :)

And someday, someone of the opposite gender, will begin to fall head over heels for me. We would fall in love and we will care for each other without a care in the world. So i will patiently wait for my day to come. But meanwhile. i will try my best to be the bestest i can be, and not be desperate but just let nature take its course.
-From the book of unsaid words.

2009-06-27T09:42:00.006+08:00

Yesterday i went prawning with other 6c-ians.

No point hiding,
sooooo
yes, I was gloomy.
And it made me even more gloomier.

Cos
I got PMS. :(
I caught no prawns. :(
I accidentally dropped the prawning net into the water. :(
I was clumsy :(
My lovely diamond slippers broke. :(

This frigging time of the month, always make life so difficult for me and stuff.
And and i feel like i'm not doing anything right. F.
This month hasent been really kind- Pimple outbreaks, and a heavy heart. :(
Well, just let me tide through this few days, and it will be alright :D

Felt like this:

Well, it was an experience. I rented a prawning rod for 1 hour, $14.50. Then then, i unwinded the rod or sth and then the hook PRICKED ME. :'(

And and, nevermind. Chongyong was nice to help me out and stuff. Thanks chongyong :-)

Apparently, you were supposed to see if the floating thing sank(cos it means that the prawns are eating). AND APPARENTLY i cant see if it's sinking or not! It's like sinking or not, still the same luhs. DAMN SIAN.

There was this uncle, he gave us 3 PRAWNS! Like so nice:D But he's pretty weird though x_x

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Jackie they all came later.

Jackie caught his FIRST prawn of the night!

Removing its pincers.

At the end of the day, we have 6 prawns in our prawning net..... Um 3 contributed by that uncle luhs.

Killing, or rather half-killing the prawns by using a stick. :(
Gruesome.

Another uncle has like 30 PLUS prawns in ONE HOUR!!!!!!
He is like damn happy, and it's like cheaper than buying from Sheng Shiong.

IMAGINE THAT.

See:

Our prawns.....

Just reached the fire.. They were like moving and stuff x_x

Oh it's red it's red!!!!
XD

The pro uncle(aka caught 30 plus prawns uncle) gave us 4 prawns, since we got 10 people. So one prawn to eat each luhs.

So kind :D

The prawns were creamy and tender.
I've never eaten such prawns before x_x But yeah.

Jackie started to let us try the prawn "butter", aka a part of the head.
Pretty good.

No more!!

Walked home with 1 slipper spoiled. :(

Things will get better after this.
I know it will :')

2009-06-26T15:59:00.005+08:00

HELLO PEOPLE!

Today was filled with some fun and some previous private time with my ma.

Couldnt make it to CLASS OUTING for movie and all, but i saw them in Somerset MRT, purely coincidence!! Happy to see them luhs. :D Weiting, Zachary, Edwin and Zheng guo was there. Said hi to them then left. (:

JACK'S PLACE.

Make me feel like a king luhs ^^

& THE FOOD MARATHON STARTS.......
Lobster Bisque
Have to have this when i come to Jack's place.
Awesome, with bite sized chunks of lobster meat inside. ^^
MMMM.

Half a dozen Oysters

Loads of Pepper Sauce like how i always like it to be :)

Ribeyed steak with Veggies and Baked Potato with Mayo and Bacon Bits

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PWNED!

Caramel Pudding

Not really fantastic :(
Doesnt have the caramel taste but the pudding goes well with the almonds.

So yeap, anyway after the meal went to shop with mum. Not much of shopping, just window shopping.
Mum decided to get herself a nice nice bag from Orchard when she gets her bonus.

Bought groceries on the way home, like Cherries and all.. Gonna eat them right after i finish this post.
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YESTERDAY.
Casual outing with 6cs- transformers. (:

XD

Transformers for me was interesting, funny yet a little draggy :/ 2 hours 10 mins.
Sat beside jackie and beside was charis. Was feeling cold and jackie lend me his shirt. Thanks ah, really appreciate it :)

Reached khatib around 12 plus and esther bought MANGO PUDDING from 7 eleven....
I didnt eat though.

MANGO PUDDING GAM1 BEI1!!!

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BYE!
Prawning later, maybe??
♥♥♥

2009-06-26T01:12:00.002+08:00

In God we trust.

In facebook, there is this In God We Trust application. Yup, so anyway, i know it's something by chance by why everytime so zhun3 one???? :D

This was what was for me today:

You've carried the guilt, the shame for long enough. You've kept your wounds open for long enough. The time has to come to let go, to heal. Keep the lessons and let the pain heal. Yes, you know what we are talking about it.

So anyway, it's just encouraging lah. Love it.
I think all christian or non-christian but are curious friends should use this application :)

PRAWNING TMR.
PRAWNING THE DAY AFTER.

Would it be fun, i dont know??
But you can expect LOTSA pics to be uploaded here!~

2009-06-25T14:01:00.003+08:00

An ordinary day with extraordinary things.

Went to school, to the gym to be specific as usual with fatin.
We bidded goodbye halfway during our workout, and after a while i went to Makan Place. Dropped by CO-OP and bought a little notebook.

1. Food/exercise diary.Heard from various people that it's recommended to get a food diary- To keep track of my eating habits(and to find out what triggers eating excessively etc, is it stress, etc), as well as to motivate you to exercise more.
:)
Well, you never know whether it helps until you start trying.

2. Khaki Fuyong(Or sth like that)
Fried egg with oysters from Makan place.

Really highly recommended! They are fairly generous with their oysters, and it taste OH SO DELICIOUS..... to me at least :D Go try it!

3. Banana juice from Makan Place.

Very creamy, and surprisingly thirst-quenching. Hmmm.

Things have been going so fast....
Just so so fast.
I need a break, to breathe.
Maybe i should get a diary, to pen down all my thoughts.

And i dont want to go near you anymore, cos i know that i would hurt you in the end.
And i dont want to go near you anymore, knowing that i would GET hurt in the end.

I'm scared, i really amD:

Emoing now.... i think it's PMS.

AND HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU DEAR FRIEND! :D
Love love love.
Even though it has only been 1-2 months knowing you,
but still. :)

2009-06-24T19:33:00.003+08:00

Bus 74.

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Have been gaining alot of weight, and this has cause deep distraught D:
My face is rounder and all.
I dont want can!
Oh you stinking metabolism, why so low.

Will try to go on a diet plus exercise more. (:
And not to mention dance classes (: (BUT FINANCE WISE SIGH)
Wont give up trying.
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Oh yeah, yueyang told and persuaded me to join STUDIO WU instead.
He says that can go UNLIMTED classes for $120-$150 per month.
Not sure whether got hidden cost or not):
But yah, seems quite attractive.

2009-06-24T09:12:00.002+08:00

To live, is to die.

Thanks for sending me that sms.
Thanks for saying that i'm a sincere friend.

When i read the sms,
i thought back about what i was last time.
In sec 1/2....
A shitty, gossipy, hot tempered friend.
An unappreciative, quick tempered and violent family member.

I still remember vividly how friends all left me, and i was all alone.
I still remember vividly how i fought with my grandmother, profanities thrown here and there.
I still vividly remember how i shouted at my mother till she cried.
I still remember vividly how i used to quietly slit my wrists last time, it was stupid but oh yes it eased the pain inside.

And now, i think i'm a much better friend/family member,
I may still be imperfect; I do fall short of people's expectations from time to time.
But i'm NICE, cos at least i'm trying to be better.
And i'll never give up trying.
NEVER.
You heard me.
NEVER.

And right now i'm satisfied with my life. :)

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Anyway, going to NGEE ANN to study (:
Wanted to call Fatin along yesterday, but i guess maybe i need some time alone to think reflect, and do what i have to do.

Maybe accompanying charis tmr to eat sakae sushi buffet.
See ya, lovelies.

2009-06-23T20:50:00.006+08:00

Peaceful day.Spent sometime with myself and myself only.

:) I love peace sometimes, even though i dont mind social gatherings.

Played with yang yang as usual for a while.
Had a longgggggggg afternoon nap, like 4 hours? YUP. Satisfying (:

And then went to the gym! :D
Spent a mere 40 mins there, but felt so much better after that. (:
All the more motivated to exercise even more and keep fit luhs.

Traded my old second hand phone for like $15...??? Wow.
Used the money to buy groceries- Juices, CALCIYUM, and jumbo USA strawberries.

You guys can trust me.
:)
Just something random.

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INTENDING TO JOIN O SCHOOL!
See the webbie: http://www.oschool.com.sg/dance_class_info.html#hiphop

I not sure which course/open course to join: Lyrical hip hop, LA hip hop, or MTV groove?? Haha.
The video of MTV groove in the webbie rocks....

See this:

Lyrical HipHop

LA HipHop

MTV Groove

Okay, maybe LA hip hop is the best, but it's also the most expensive.. $150/8 lessons, whereas MTV groove is $120/8 lessons.

Nevertheless, both are quite ex.... And i have been spending a lot of money. Scared my family members not happy D:

So, got anyone want to accompany me marh? :D
Company would be awesome, even though i can just make more friends there.

Not sure larhs, though i've mailed them (:

Confidence crushed, after i couldnt get into NRA.
But oh nvm, i'm also not dancing as a profession.
I will continue dancing as LONG as i like it. (:
Go me.

2009-06-23T01:15:00.008+08:00

6C OUTING AT SENTOSA.

8AM 22ND JUNE~1AM 23RD JUNE.

Totally shacked, 100% ! (:
Alot of photos taken, mostly from Charis' professional camera.

People who went were:
(GIRLS) Me hazel esther charis
(GUYS) Gordon pindong yongjun chuwei chongyong kaiyong kaiyang john and sebastian who came later.

Basically the usuals lahs :)

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Prepared sandwiches early in the morning. Man, it was pretty boring. :( Wrapped in aluminium foil and all.

Reached khatib at 8am. Ronald came next. Then chongyong. Waited for quite long for the other people. :/
People slowly flooded in.......

And while waiting, i took out my hair extensions and played with it. The guys were like curious and i put on their hair.

See:

Look like monsters. XD WAHAHHAA.

Love my hair extensions. :)

Then we reached SENTOSA............ Went to Palawan beach.

At sentosa we:

Volleyball, frisbee, eating, burying people namely Kaiyong and Pindong, looking at john ronald and pindong tan, digging a super large hole(approx 0.7m deep and 2.5m wide BEAT THAT :D) where Sebbie called it the "GREAT ACCOMPLISHMENT", played captains ball in the sea, floating aimlessly with Esther in the sea, talked about love with ronald and esther....

basically slacked and had a great time with each other lah (:

And then went to VIVOCITY to eat Carl's Junior. Ordered Portbello mushroom burger COMBO. Finally got to eat this oh so famous meal (; The burger not bad tooo, but servings were tooo big.

And while we were about to leave Carl's junior already..... I realised...... I LEFT MY LAUNDRY BAG IN SENTOSA.

My lovely:

-1 red hair extension, which i just bought yesterday D:
-White beach bermudas, which i wear for 5 years liao. But still, i love it D:
-Black super man tee, makes me happy when i wear. D:
-Towel, NVM.
-Undergarments, NVM -.-

I WAS LIKE.............................. WHAT THE HELLLLLLLLL......
SAD SMILEY SAD SMILEY SAD SMILEY )))))):

Esther accompanied me back to sentosa again.

Then halfway, through, esther realised that she left my laundry bag in the toilet.....
And she felt guilty.

Initially was a bit upset and angry a bit with her and a bit with myself too, but then i realised that this kind of things do happen. So next time just be more careful, and that i do have my own responsibility for my belongings.

"We will contact you again if we find it."
~~Little hope~~ D:

SIGH*

Homed with all of them; Pindong Sebbie and Chongyong suddenly became like instant best friends, and sang all the way home. :D Tried to film them singing but they didnt allow me too. HMPH D:

Celebrated Gordon and Jackie's birthday. HAPPY BIRTHDAY YOU TOO!
We had a mini celeb...

Gave gordon: Starbucks coffee from CHEERS(Since he always like coffee), and ferrero roche.
Gave jackie: 2 Jolly Shandy(since heard he liked a kind of alcoholic drink, but cos we cant buy it anyway so we bought jolly shandy instead) and ferrero roche.

Headed over to the playground and
PINDONG, SEBBY, AND CHONGYONG(The overnight bestfriends/happy THREE friends) sang them songs and make them laugh. :)

So that was my day :-)
Memorable, yet bittersweet.

CHIPALAKAN!!!!
PALAKANCHI!!!!!
;)

Let no one tell you you're not pretty.
Let no one tell you you're stupid.
Let no one tell you you suck.
You're worthy, and let no one tell you otherwise.

Your acceptance is yours and yours only.

2009-06-21T15:43:00.006+08:00

Church@LIGHTHOUSE! (:

Together with Charis, Chengmun and Sheng Chuan(Is it spelled correctly??)

Me, Chengmun, and Sheng Chuan.
Charis was the camera woman.

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TAKE 1.
I closed my eyes.

TAKE 2.
I opened my eyes too big liao.

I know, looks very chou3 :(

TAKE 3.
Decent picture!

Take care chengmun :3

So anyway, yeah. Was not bad.
Worship was awesome.
Sermon was slightly draggy as usual.
Pastor Pacer rocks.

Havent felt God for such a long time,
Cos um i havent been to church for a long time ?? X:

Countless days of fun with friends, laughing and all,
but deep inside, there is no peace.

But today's service
It satisfies me and makes me whole again.

It's amazing how i asked God to come down and touch me a few days ago(5 posts down),
and he did:)

And maybe going to church is not that HARD after all, maybe i could connect with people at lighthouse, and then stay rooted there. Maybe. :)

There was this song that struck me during worship.

Do listen to it.

None but Jesus- Hillsong United.

Lyrics:

In the quiet, in the stillness
I know that you are God
In the secret of your presence
I know there I am restored
When you call I won't refuse
Each new day, again I'll choose

There is no one else for me None but Jesus Crucified to set me free
Now I live to bring Him praise

In the chaos, in confusion I know you're sovereign still In the moment of my weakness You give me grace to do your will When you call I won't delay This my song through all my days

There is no one else for me
None but Jesus
Crucified to set me free
Now I live to bring Him praise

I am yours and you are mine...

All my delight is in you Lord All of my hope All of my strength
All my delight is in you Lord
Forevermore

Then me and charis, during the service, talked softly to each other.....
told her that i wanted to do hair extensions... and then when we went to my house downstairs, they dont provide hair extensions!!!!! D:
Then went to the market further down, also dont have! DISAPPOINTED DISAPPOINTED!!

Bought snacks and drinks and bread and peanut butter for tmr's sentosa outing. (:
Went to kaiyong's house to deposit the drinks :P

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Pissed off by my blogshop again! D:
So a bit emo in the afternoon.

Then went out in the end, to shop and
To FAR EAST PLAZA.
That place rockszxx man.

Bought a lot of things.

Supposed to be worn with a T-SHIRT. (:

AND FINALLY
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HAIR EXTENSIONS!

2 red and 1 brown.

See it???(:
It's clip on though, meaning i can take it in/out anytime i wish to (:

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On a lighter note.....

I tried putting on the shiseido black mask today!
It was liquid at the start, but after 30 mins it became a hard hard mask, and can peel out one.
My skin actually worsen a little after applying it x_X Naturgo is better.
Thank goodness only bought 5 of this.

Anyway, bye!
Love 6c.

2009-06-20T20:21:00.009+08:00

TOWNED with the guys!

Achy feet now D:
The guys namely:Gordon john kaiyong chuwei chongyong jackie, then pindong came later.

Went to J8 first, then Far East plaza.
I bought a vest(is it a vest?? not sure.) from J8 PLUS a pretty white starry scarf from far east plaza. Really in love with my scarf. x_x

See my SCARF:

Feel like wearing it EVERYDAY t school,
but people would think i'm crazy so nvm XD

Peektures:

HAZEL mother's shop!

Chongyong (:
Another jubeat pro!

The guys :)

Do i look nice in it??
Hahas.

4 of us ate CURRY FISHBALLS.
I know it sounds weird, but it was not bad.

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So anyway, experience of shopping with the guys??
Okay lah, not that bad i suppose (:
Even though girls make greater shopping companions!

Oh ya, we also went HEEREN, then watched HIP HOP dance battle...

Jackie said something really crappy.
He said.

SP- Sure pass.
NYP- Not yet pass.
NP- Never pass.

WTH ! O_O So offensive, and NP is not lousy at all okay.
But it was funny lah! XD

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Love makes the world go round? No.
Money makes the world go round? No.
Shopping makes the world go round? YES. :P

MASKS.

Anyway, yesterday i recieved my 50 masks which i bought online a few weeks back!!!
Guess how much for 50 masks?? You guess??

Shiseido black nose mask.
You leave it on for 30 mins then you peel the whole thing off after 30 mins.

Collagen eye masks. 30 pieces.

Naturgo masks. 15 pieces.
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GUESS HOW MUCH??
ONLY $10 FOR 50 PIECES! ;)
Which is like 20 cents for 1 piece. -.-
The malls sell 1 mask for like $5!!!!!

hehehe ;)
As for why it is so cheap, it's secret :P

So anyway, used the Naturgo mask yesterday on myself.
My pimples all become smaller, and some gone somemore ^^
Really good siah, even if it's $2 it's still useful, what more 20 cents?!?!?!
HAH.
But the only thing is that it is hard to wash off ):

And and, it's hideous. it was a black mask and when i looked at the mirror i got freaked out XD
Shall post the picture up to scare you all next time!

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And 6c is really one in a million.
Maybe i've been expecting the same standard from my other friends,
That's why i get disappointed.

I know you girls have exams after holidays and all.
Feeling disappointed, but i must understand it, right??

Well, at least this time i handled it better.
I didnt wail at anyone, nor did i shout at my mum(yes last time i used to be a spoiltbrat).
I think i must have grown, and that's what matters most. :')

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Yeah... They sell it in a packet too :-) 60 cents.

Anyway,
Joyce leong sent me a webbie of a malaysian online bag shop!!!
WHOA NICE.
Would buy some from there.
Using my own money horh!!!! My pay from last time. ;)
So i have the right tooo ;)

Anyway,
toodles nice people! :3

2009-06-20T10:52:00.002+08:00

TOWNING with John and Gordon later!
My very first time shopping with guys and guys only.
Guess it would be an experience??

And oh,
My grandma is so nice and gracious.

Love in Action.

(In chinese)
Hannah: Did you buy anything for me to eat at the market?
Popo: Sorry ah, didnt buy, cos i didnt even know you're still at home. I only bought a packet of rice for myself, so that can eat medicine.
*PAUSES FOR A WHILE*
Popo: You want my packet of rice instead??
Hannah: No dont want, you need to take medicine right?
Popo: No, i can give it to you.
Hannah: No dont want, i eat maggie mee instead.
Popo: Dont want, i give you.
Hannah: it's okay lah, it's your packet of rice.
Popo: Just take it.
Hannah: Nope it's yours.
Popo: Takes back her packet of rice.
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SIGH. My grannie is always that nice. Always caring for me, and always giving me money when i go out. Love her alot.

Bye, and would update about my towning experience later! :D

Till then,
much love.
HANNAH.

2009-06-19T15:20:00.003+08:00

Gyming with Fatin in the morning (:

Then in the afternoon, Charis gordon pindong and kaiyang coming to my house to "study".
HAHA.
Pindong left at 5pm.
Then charis and gordon were like 2 1/2 hours late -.-
Played BOXHEAD until like siao. :D
They did pretty well.

Anyway, more quizzes!

You Are A Good Friend

You're always willing to listen to your friends.

And you're the first to lend a shoulder to cry on.

You're there through thick and thin. You won't stop being friends with someone when times are tough.

In fact, you're such a good friend that many people consider you their "best friend"!

What Kind of Friend Are You?

YAY :)

Your Friend is Not Fake

You have a true friend - and you're smart enough to know you're lucky to have such a great friendship.

So let your friend know that you really appreciate all she's done for you... and for keeping it real!

Is Your Best Girl Friend Fake?

Fatin, this is for you :)

Your Friendship Style is Independent

You love your friends, but you don't always need them as much as they need you.

You like to do your own thing. Sometimes this means taking a break from your friends and carving your own path.

As long as your friends give you the space you need, you are happy to be there for them whenever you can.

Your friends lean on you for advice and problem solving. You tend to be "the rock."

You and an Empathetic Friend: Go well together. Your Empathetic Friend understand and accepts you... but may be too needy sometimes.

You and a Gregarious Friend: Get along well, as long as your Gregarious Friend is happy to only see you occasionally.

You and another Independent Friend: Have a love / hate thing going on. When you agree, things are blissful. However, more often than not, you butt heads.

You and a Philosophical Friend: Are somewhat a matter of opposites attract. You're both thinkers, but you think very differently.

What's Your Friendship Style?

True.

You Are a Drama Princess (or Prince)

You're not over the top dramatic, but you have your moments.

You know how to steal the spotlight...

And how to act out to get your way.

People around you know that you're good for a laugh.

But at times, your drama gets a bit too much for everyone.

Tone it down a tad, and you'll still be the center of attention.

Are You a Drama Queen (or King)?

HAHA

You Have Low Self Esteem 44% of the Time

While you sometimes feel good about yourself, you tend to struggle a little with self esteem issues.

It's not about changing who you are, it's about accepting your faults. You just need to be less critical and demanding of yourself!

How is Your Self Esteem?

Hais :( Something i need to work on.

Your Extroversion Profile:

Friendliness: Very High
Activity Level: High
Assertiveness: High
Cheerfulness: High
Sociability: High
Excitement Seeking: Low

How Extroverted Are You?

Very very true :)
Outgoing for almost anything except excitement seeking stuff, like high elements and all :(

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YUP.
Looking forward to 6C sentosa outing on MONDAY!
:)

2009-06-18T17:04:00.002+08:00

BAD BAD MOOD TODAY.

Miss angry made a rare rare appearance! RAWRRRRRR.
She has been away for so so long! Miss cheerful and miss emo is gone; It's ALL MISS ANGRY.

RAWRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR i think it's P.M.S.
RAWRRRRRRRRRRRRR.

My BAGS supplier has been so irresponsible, delaying the bags for so long already.......customers have been screaming at me.
Customers dont really care if you have problems with the delayed shipping time and all.
YES, they dont give a damn. All they want is their GOODS.

*SIGH.*

Maybe that's what the working world is?? A whole lot of responsibilities, unreasonable expectations; Is that how things are?

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It's easy to love the lovable,
But hard to love the unlovable.

And for me, i dont have the strength to love the unlovable anymore.
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So leave me alone.
Go away. FAR FAR AWAY.
If not i will hurt you.
~~Cos i'm hurting inside too.~~

It's not that jie jie doesnt love you.
But i just hate people invading my privacy! D:
SIGH.
I dont know how to communicate with you for NUTS. D:

Went to NGEE ANN POLY with PINDONG today.
Played BOXHEAD.
Killing zombies and blood splurting and all, a very good combination for my mood today!
And we made it to the highscores! HAHA.
He treated me to MILO.
Thanks arh (:
Later movie at AMK hub!

2009-06-17T16:25:00.008+08:00

BORED!!!!! :(

Whole day at home, with absolutely nothing to do at all- except yes, you know, the COMPUTER.
So boring, i feel like screaming.
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Hope there is movie later???
Not confirmed though.

Anyway,
Quizzy time!

You Need Friends to Be Happy

You are a friendly, social person. You seek out connections and relationships.

Being close to others is very important to you, and you don't like discord.

You feel great when you're cooperating and working with others. You enjoy belonging to a group.

Nothing makes you feel worse that feeling alone or alienated. You want to be liked by those around you.

What Do You Need to Be Happy?

Wooohooo,yay!

You Are Bitter

You aren't bitter at the world, even though you have a strong personality.

Instead, you are sophisticated and cultured. You appreciate acquired tastes.

You are very powerful. You have the ability to change a room's energy.

While some may find you disagreeable, your points of view are intelligent and interesting.

What Taste Are You?

Love it :)

Your Gift is Imagination

You are constantly dreaming. You are always thinking about what could be.

You love to express yourself in many ways. You have a way with words and tell vivid stories.

You love to be amused. You are good entertaining yourself, and other people find you hilarious.

You're the type of person who finds staying happy easy. There's always fun to be had!

What's Your Gift?

Hahhaha weird. I entertain myself, then people laugh at me?? LAME.

Your Evil Name Is Hecate Usha

Muhahahaha!

What's Your Evil Name?

Sounds more CORNY than EVIL.
:/

Your Heart is Feeling Shy

Your heart certainly has some strong feelings, you're just not sure if you're ready to let them show.

You could be someone's secret admirer, or maybe you just haven't truly expressed how deep your feelings run.

Maybe you're still a little unsure about how you feel... or your unsure about what reaction you'll get.

Deep down, your heart is susceptible to: Clamming up and running away from love

Your current outlook on love: Introspective and a bit detached

Your love life will improve if you: Put yourself out there a little more. If you don't try, you'll never know.

Watch out for: Having a one sided romance - you need to be sure you're feelings are reciprocated

What Is Your Heart Feeling?

BOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO. One sided romance SUCKS big time.
And while i doubt that i'm shy, i think i may be quite shy when it comes to love.

You Are Highly Expressive

You are dramatic, expressive, and even a bit temperamental.

You are artistic and creative. You're always dabbling in something.

You are very self-aware and introspective. You understand yourself well.

You are on a constant journey in life, and you change frequently. You're a shapeshifter of sorts.

The Watercolor Test

Your Hidden Talent is Understanding People

Your natural talent is interpersonal relations and dealing with people.

You communicate well and are able to bring disparate groups together.

Your calming presence helps everything go more smoothly.

People crave your praise and complements.

What's Your Hidden Talent?

Thanks ah thanks ah (:
But i dont compliment much though,inaccurate!

Your Pizza Says You Are a Food Snob

Your appetite is pretty average. You don't go overboard - but you don't deprive yourself either.

You are a very picky pizza eater. Not any pizza will do. You fit in best in the Northeast part of the US.

You like food that's traditional and well crafted. You aren't impressed with "gourmet" foods.

You are generous, outgoing, and considerate with your choices.

You are cultured and intellectual. You should consider traveling to Vienna.

The stereotype that best fits you is geek. You're the type most likely to order pizza to avoid leaving your computer.

What Does Your Pizza Say About You?

Not impressed when you say me geek!

You Are Play

Compared to most people, you are very active and energetic.

You have a daring, challenging spirit. You're willing to go into something blind.

You are playful, carefree, and optimistic. You are up for trying anything.

If you dream it, you usually end up doing it. You're not one for putting your dreams on hold.

What Remote Button Are You?

You Attract a Cancer

When sensitive, needy, emotional Cancer meet you, they've met your match.

You can nurture a Cancer and take things as slowly as is needed.

You are careful with your Cancer. You try not to ever say or do anything upsetting.

You're willing to walk on eggshells. It's worth it for your Cancer's devotion.

What Sign Do You Attract?

WAH LAU, ZHUN3 SIAH!
Charis, gordon, or even jackie. See that see that!!!
And no wonder Juetong the pet loves me so much. he he.

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And by being such a nice friend,
i shall post 2 very nice photos of my fellow 6c mates:

Nice gesture indeed.
:)

Goodbye.

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LAU EH...
SUPER PISSED OFF WITH ONE OF MY FRIENDS.
Uncoorperative, blunt, unappreciative and all.
Dammitdammitdammit.
Feel like saying the F word.
FARRRRRRRRRRRRRKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK.

Can you at least appreciate what i am doing???
Cant you see??
Stop taking people for granted lah you, you carrot stick.

Dont like her attitude, yet dont feel like telling her.
Feel like a bad friendD:

(If you're reading this,then it's not you.... cos that friend rarely reads my blog)

I wont be angry over this issue.:)
Chill hannah chilllll.
Wont let anyone/anything rob away my joy/happiness.
So there.

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My almost dead spiritual life.
Reviving it?
It's so hard to.
I can commit my whole self to just about anything.
But one thing is for sure is that i cannot commit to any church.
Afraid of commitment to that area.

God, if you're true.
Just come down and touch me.
And touch everyone else too.
But why arent you doing that??
How come?

I dont think i deserve to go to hell, i really dont.
And similarly, some of my friends dont deserve to.
So i hope you'll give me the time and the opportunity to get to know you better.
Hope you'll be fair.

Many questions, unanswered.
Will these questions be answered throughout my lifetime??

2009-06-16T18:35:00.011+08:00

CHANGED MY BLOGSKIN!
What do you think??? :D
Nicer or not??

Teeheee.

A picture says a thousand words.
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Went t school today, woke up early!
Saw KIM.
She looked tired, with only 25 mins of sleep. -.-
Talked to her while waiting for Fatin.

Then headed over to NGEE ANN gymnasium.
With Fatin (:
We go there for S&W every week, but we need to go there for the holidays to reach our target.

GYM:
"Dance studio"

Trackmills.

Working out Area.

Lockers.

Hair dryers and combing hair place.
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Exercised for like 1 1/2 hours.

Man that is VERY LONG ! (:
Can still feel my body "burning" inside. :D
Not in a painful way of course.

Quite tired after that..... But yeah.

Decided to camwhore at the "dance studio"

Introducing.......................

THE MODEL!
AND

THE LAME.-.-

Come to think of it,
Am happy for talking things out.
Our friendship is worth more than a worthless thing.
Sorry that i was very possessive and jealous.
Actually i should say sorry to myself-hurt myself throughout this torturous process :/
Each time when i mention of ........ i get very EMO.
But thank goodness we talked it out.
And i feel so much lighter now. :)
Thanks,and love you my friend.
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Went out with Eeting after that!
It was like a totally last min thing!
Very long never see her liao.

LOVE LOVE LOVE :)
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Played JUBEAT at arcade. (:
One of me and eeting's favourite games there of alll time.
MY TURN:

Check out my score:

It's an A(GOOD, there are better scores like S and SS though)

LEVEL 5(average level)

and yes i'm not pro but am satisfied (:

EETING'S TURN:

Then Deyi and his AHEM came and joined us. :D
His AHEM was rather nice, and she's scorpio tooo ! Like omg.

Then pei 3 of them eat at the food court. (:
Chatted and all.

Deyi treated us to banana milkshake + dessert.
So nice of him but yet cant help feeling paiseh X:

POKERFACE LOVERS! :D

A friend, one in a million.

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(Left to right)
Nicole, Hannah(if you dont know it's me i will smack you!), eeting, and deyi :D

RETARD.

lonely:(
people have their significant other to hold and cuddle.
a number of my friends have bf/gf already.
But i'm still too young and immature, right?
Emotionally stable first then think about it. (:

And Eeting sent me a long-overdued photo.

TADAH! Outing with her last time.
VENECIAN(spelling wrong) ICE CREAM ROCKS!

Anyway, much love love love love.
Cos i'm happy today.
And i'm gonna spread the love EVERYWHERE!

Ciaoz.

Want to have my own originality! ):
Dont want t follow her! D:

2009-06-15T16:04:00.003+08:00

1. If your doctor told you TODAY that you were pregnant, what would you say?
talk nonsense and sue him.... i never had, you know, ______. cant get preggy by thin air luhs.

2. Do you trust all of your friends?
Trust?? Hmmmm. Would say i trust each and everyone to some extent. But full trust, maybe not so many.

3. Would you move to another state or country to be with the one you love?
Depends on the person, circumstance and country. Ahhhhh aussie.

4. Do you believe that everything happens for a reason?
Yeah (: And that's what keeps people going, purpose.

5. Can you make a dollar in change right now?
At home what, can.

6. Which one of your friends do you think would make the best doctor?
Um...... I dont know. None of my friends interested in medicine.

7. Are you afraid of falling in love?
Yeah.

9. Is there someone who pops into your mind at random times?
Yup duhhhh.

10. Whats your most favorite scar?
Scar got favourite one har? Dont think i have a fav one X:

11. When was the last time you flew in a plane?
November last year (:

12. What did the last text message you sent say?
My phone's outside, SORRY!

13. What features do you find most attractive in the preferred sex?
gentle character.

14. Fill in the blank:
SHUTUP idiot.
No person in particular, just being random.

15. What is a goal would you like to accomplish in the near future?
To be happier, more confident, and yeah...

16. If you were to wake up from being in a coma for an extended time who would you call?
Hmmmm. My mum i guess?

17. How many kids do you want to have?
Either ZERO, or 2-3 luhs.

18. Would you make a good parent?
Perhaps?

19. Where was your profile picture taken?
Ang mo kio there (:

20. Whats your middle name?
ONG.

21. Honestly, whats on your mind right now?
What song should i listen to?

22. If you could go back in time and change something, what would it be?
Change anything? Hmm.. Tell people whom i have hurt sorry and to treat them nicer.

23. Who will be the maid of honour/ best man in your wedding??
Dont know.... Probably my best guy friend/husband's best guy friend at that point of time. (:

24. What are you wearing right now?
Pink PJs. ;)

25. Righty or Lefty?
Righty.

26. Best place to eat?
With the best people. hah.

27. Favorite jeans?
My espirit 3/4 jeans ! :P

28. Favorite animal?
Hmmmm.. Guinea pigs. :D AWWWWWW.

29. Favorite juice?
Depends on mood.

30. Have you had the chicken pox?
2-3 years old that time. (:

31. Have you had a sore throat?
DUHHHH. I'm human alright.

32. Ever had a bar fight?
I've never even been to a bar.

33. Who knows you the best?
Depends. My mum in some area, my good friends in some areas.

34. Shoe size?
38.

35. Do you wear contact lenses or glasses?
Glasses :) But do hope to try out coloured contact lens :)

36. Ever been in a fight with your pet?
Eh nope.

37. Been to Mexico?
No, and definetly not at this time now.

38. Did you buy something today?
Never even go out. D:

39. Did you get sick today?
a bit of runny nose, but hah i'm fine ;)

40. Do you miss someone today?
sort of.

41. Did you get in a fight with someone today?
nope.

42. When is the last time you had a massage??
i never had a real massage before (:

43. Last person to lay in your bed?
my mum (:

44 . Last person to see you cry?
fatin i guess... i dont know.

45. Who made you cry?
YOU. nah just kidding. Crying for no one, simply cos i want to let it out.

46. What was the last TV show you watched.
Havent been watching tv for like donkey years. X:

47. What are your plans for the weekend?
GO OUT! (:

48. Who do you think will re-post this?
Anyone who is as bored as me. (:

49. Who was the last person you hung out with?
6c luhs.

50. If your significant other asked you to marry them TODAY what would you say?
Marry today? Hmmmmm. WAIT. Are you out of your mind??

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Feel a bit scared.
My grandmother keeps shouting, cos stressed from taking care of baby.
And sometimes i do help, but i cant possibly help forever right....
Scared that one day she will crack under stress..

I would like my grandmother to be less stressed.
But yet... I dont want yang yang to be sent to infant care. ;(

2009-06-14T08:53:00.005+08:00

Saturday.

Outing with 6c yesterday. Slacking at Starbucks, ate at Buddy Hoagies, then went to Lower Seletar Reservoir (:

The guys fellowshipping with each other.

Charis the faceless.
Gordon the unbelievably nice guy. :)

Esther the primary school bestie.

Hazel the laughing girl :)
Kaiyong the super shy boy (:

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Today.

Spent the whole day at home.... Eating playing computer sleeping eating again then computer again then eating then computer.
VERY NO LIFE.
So decided to go to Pindong's "STUDY" session at MACS (:

It's with a " " as no one really studies there; More like socialising session. (:

Charis' super chio professional camera.

Me Charis and Esther made a PROMISE- When we are old and one of us have no home to stay, the others must accept the homeless friend into their house and let her stay. (:

The promise was a little silly, but at least it made us happy (:

My name.

Gordon: *Hides face* DONT LET YOU TAKE PICTURE OF ME.

Got caught!!!

They were like..... playing cards for HOURS.

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Tried this, and shared with esther. it's called the Chicken Munchees.

I TELL YOU,
after this Chicken Munchees,
I would BE healthy from now on.
Eat healthily, and exercise.
You'll see!

Then homed with Gordon and Charis. They sent me back home. Thank you guys (:

Was emo during the day,
but cheered up cos of all the laughter we all shared.
FRIENDS ARE INDEED THE REMEDY TO SADNESS;D

and..... it's past 12 already.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY JENNY! :3

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GROWING UP.
Sometimes, in a way, i dont wish to grow up.
Cos when you grow up to be an adult,
there are alot of things which you need to sacrifice.

You SACRIFICE social gatherings and fun times which teenagers share.
You SACRIFICE all your time and energy on your kids and husbands, and bad parents-in-laws.
You SACRIFICE happiness in a way, and responsibility comes into the picture.

And sometimes, i would just rather be a teenager all my life xD
But what i do know is adulthood is very very soon.
And it would be knocking at my door before i even know it.

Question: If you think a good friend's attitude SUCKS, would you tell them or keep it to yourself and accept them?
Isnt the supposedly "right" way is to let them know how you feel? Yet how come sometimes we just prefer to keep it to ourselves?